They all seem like they are rreal ythey only are that way until u tell them your secrets then they turn fake youll get stabbed dont trust all i do is wanna cry mumm is gonna leave soon she said mean things to me i stored into the back of my head to hide it all until im alone this vavation im afraid its gonna happen all over again i hide my saddness no one wants to deal with me i just wanna leave but then i think of him he will be devasted if i left for ever so im scared this vacation ik im going to be back to being a depressed girl no one wants to talk to i want to leave this stupid world i just wantr to let it out but ik if i did i wont be able to stop it i want to scream my lungs out i want all the blood pumping in my body to drain out can i leave?! the scars i want to leave all over my body but im trying to hold back will you help me or am i alone i want to dissapear if i leave will people at school notice? the saddness im trying to hold back is making me tired i wanna scream and never stop i want it so deep blood running down my arm into a pile of blood and the last thing i will say is I love yall but it hurts too much for me im sorry. tyhey all betrayed me im scared im scared out of my mind will this pain end? i want to punch a mirror blades of glass in my nuckles, bleeding out laughing because no one will care! my friends i think will be there for me leave faster than i say i love you will i end it tonight no one knows until i decide im scared he will leave me too i love him more than my own life i trust him with my life but im scared he makes me happier than ive been in over a year i just need a hug from him just that will make me better i need him by my side i feel like i might cry but i force myself not to cry because ill look weak im stipid no one wants me ive been betrayed to many times i wantn to end it all right now so i really want to say goodbye tthe last few breathes i take will be the last forever a bullet to the head to be a fast death will that be it? im tired of this horrible life could it end?? the knife in my hand blood dripping down my arm my vision fading, getting hard to breath feel like i might fall starting to regreat it but knowing if you come back its just going to get worse so if i died would you cry? tears running down my cheeks mascara running down my face im a mess and no one likes me im a depressed girl in a hard life i wanna excape but idk how and im afraid ill regret it but then it will get worse so i have 2 choices make everything better for everyone or make everything worse for everyone ik im just a mistake no one needs me.... im a waste of space and time and if im gone evryone will be better no one wants to talk to me thety hate me i hate myself they act like thay care ik they do0nt care! i dont want to be here any more no one will realise that im just a nobody so its not like you will actrally be there for me the world feel like its spinning but its not they dont realise what im going through all the time so whos gonna be there for me when i need help getting back up? im all alone and i know it. theres no words to decribe how ive been feeling i act fine in front of everyone but when no ones around i let it out when im alone and when no ones looking im sad ik and no one wants a depressed girl as their friend im a loner im on my own i have to survive alone because no one will be here for me for a long time.
