As I made my way into the house I hurd plates breaking I ran straight to the kitchen
"WHAT IS GOING ON?" I looked to see a bunch of glass on the floor with my mom crying
"Mom what's going on ?" She fell to the floor I looked on the counter to see powder and weed and a bottle of alcohol half way gone my mom never cried nor ever did drugs,weed she always come home high that ain't nothing new
"Mom what is this?" I asked pointing to the drugs that's spreaded out on the counter she didn't say a word I hurd the door open
"Mommy" shit it's my little brother I can't let him see her like this I walked out the kitchen to see him holding hands with my sperm donor things juss couldn't get worse.
"Where mommy?" James asked looking around with a big smile on his face i don't wanna ruin his day what should I say I never went through this before
" Heyyy James ma is in the kitchen but can u go upstairs n get ready for dinner it will be done in a minute." I smiled at him n he juss ran to his room
I looked up to see a smile on his face which shouldn't be dere he left without a word was never there for me when I needed him to be for 16 years I had no Father figure. And how dare he held his hands out for a hug
" Why are u here?" I told him in a nonchalant tone
"That's no way to talk to your dad." I let out a small smile he must be sick cause he think he funny
"Last time I checked u were dead to me why are u here do u need money....I TRIED TO CALL U EVERYDAY FOR YEARS U NEVER PICKED UP THE PHONE now it's that's no way to talk to your dad. I don't want a relationship with you if your here for that u can save your breath and leave but what you really need to do is be there for James who is going to need a father figure." I walked away to the kitchen my mom was not even there all the cocaine was gone there was juss glass on the floor I grabbed a broom and started cleaning up all I felt was a burn on my cheek I looked up to see my dad had slapped me.
"YOU DONT HAVE NO RIGHT Talking TO ME LIKE THAT STAY IN A KIDS PLACE" he told me huffing like he ran for miles
".. I have no right?" I repeated that in my head for a good minute he must be talking to sumone else.
"So I have no right huh okay. " I ran up stairs to grab my baby pictures and hurried back down n threw them at his face
"WHERE WAS YOU???" He took the pictures and started looking at them I felt an burn and ich in my throat like I was getting ready to cry
"Where were u when I won my first track race? When I first started middle school? When I learned how to ride a bike? When mom didn't have enough money to feed me?? WHERE WHERE YOU? the only memory I have of you is when u put your hand on my mom and beat her like she wasnt your wife your baby momma the mother of your child u hit her right In my face and u wanna know what you said to me that day??" He looked at me like he was clueless
" You told me to never say a word and that I'm lucky he didn't take it out on me." I let out a short chuckle
"I tried to think that the alcohol and weed and all that other crap was part of it but it wasn't u said that with full hatred like u hate that I was born and for years I never thought about it but now that you finally show your face IIIIIII have NOO right to say how I feel and to tell you I don't want you as my father u need to grow up and own your mistakes like a man if you even are one I wouldn't know u was never there to show me how a man is supposed to treat a woman. how I'm supposed to treat a man. I had to depend on my self and mom and when I finally got old enough to take care of myself I had to step up and be a mom and dad to my younger brother." He never said a word he juss looked at me I walked to my room and shut my door I never told anyone the truth of what happened to my father he wasn't important to me no more and when people ask I don't say anything because that's not there business I don't know why he's here but I hope he don't think I will really start a relationship with him no matter how hard he tried he had too many chances to call me or juss to come back and make up for it. I looked at the time it was 4:00 I was supposed to be meeting up with royal and Keath at 5:30. I have enough time to change into something more comfortable and wash all the pain away
I took a shower and changed into sum sweats with a crop top black shirt and some black Nikes I let my curly hair roam free by this time it was 4:50 I haven't hurd nothing since I said something to my father I walked down stairs and see my mom sitting on the couch rocking back and forth with her hands under her chin like she was thinking and it wasn't good
" Ma you alright?" She looked at me and pointed to the chair right across from her
"Baby I want you to know that I love you and I'm sorry for what you seen a minute ago I haven't done that since the last time I seen your dad but he's coming back for good not to live with us or anything juss to be here for James-"
" What do you mean coming back for good?" I interrupted
" He won't be here but he will be around I guess you have a sister that's around your age that you didn't know about but he's back for her and James maybe sum more kids that he had while we was married but I will make sure y'all two doesn't cross paths but please if y'all do please be nice I don't need no more drama in my life I'm alr late for work .. also James is with Dave so I can go out and clear your mind" she left and drove off to work
