𝚄𝚜 𝚊𝚐𝚊𝚒𝚗𝚜𝚝 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚠𝚘𝚛𝚕𝚍

꧁part 1꧂

You lived with your parents in Texas and
Your mom had you at the age of 16. Your age.and
Since you were an accident, she never really paid attention to you. Therefore you always took care
Of yourself. You had a boyfriend named Christian
And you usually argue all the time, but one day things got out of hand...

You were sitting in your room reading a book
When you Heard tapping on your window and you
Look to see your boyfriend,Christian you sigh and let him in.
"What do you want Christian I thought you never wanted to see me again"
"Your right Mar I don't. But I wanted to do something first"
He gets closer to you and you know what he's trying to do so you back away
"What are you doing..."
"Stop backing away"
You hit the wall so you can't move away from him
"Please.."
"Shhhh"
He kisses you and takes your clothes off and
You are scared of what he will do if you don't go
Along with it because he has hit you in the past.
You start crying in the kiss
"Why are you crying"
"Please d-don't do t-this"
"Ha. If I'm in the mood I'm in the mood"
He slaps you and you fall to the ground crying harder
He kicks you and you start squealing in pain
"Your a useless pathetic piece of shit."
You don't respond because you are hurt so bad
He left bruises..
He hops out the window and you sit there crying
You get up after 15 minutes and close the window and lock it. You go to the bathroom and pick up one of your blades because you used to self harm
There was dried blood on it but you didn't care.
You wanted more physical pain to distract you
From the mental pain. You slit your thigh
2 times and your wrist 1 time. You put a towel over them Until they dry up. You take a shower and lay in bed and then your mom walks in
"What the hell Marissa!"
"W-what's wrong"
"Don't act dumb.'I heard you squeal and your boyfriend come into your room.... you had sex?
You are 16! Now your turning into me!"
"Mom I didn't have sex!!"
"I heard it. Don't try lying. Your out of my house I'm Not risking you possibly being pregnant"
"You know what fine I don't wanna deal with you or dad! You are the worst parents in the whole fucking world!!" You say holding back your tears
Your mother gasps.
"Get. The fuck. Out. You have 1 hour to pack your shit and leave"
You sniffle and she slams your bedroom door and
Walks out, you start crying and then you grab a bag you put some clothes,your phone,charger,AirPods,your vapes,blades,your wallet,some money, and memory box
Then an hour later you go to walk out the front door and your mom stops you
"Honey please me and your father thought about
It and we don't want you to go! Please"
"Oh, kiss my ass. This whole scene is going to happen again."
"It won't!"
"Whatever"
You walk out the door and slam it. You had your own Car that you bought with your own money.
Your parents didn't even put a dime towards it.
And you put your stuff in the back seat.
You drive off and call maddy.
Your moms home town was east highland and you
Lived there up until you were 5,maddy and Lexi 6
And you've been best friends since then.
My bae❤️ *maddy*
Hey bae what's up!
Maddy can i come to your house and stay with you?
Girl are you joking you live in fucking Texas!
Maddy my parents kicked me out.
Oh my god I'm so sorry!
It's ok..
I would say you could stay here but I have kat staying
Over she got kicked out too.. but I know someone who
Can take you in!
Who?
Their name is fezco. I know you don't know him
But it's the only person I know.
Okay that's fine.
Okay I'll tell him that you'll be staying there.
I also think he has a little brother cigarette? Or something. But he's your ageeeee
Maddy! Now is not the time to make jokes
Okay okay sorry. But I'll let him know then.
Thank you
Ofc love you
Love you too.
The call ends and you arrive at east highland at 12:23 am
You pull up to Fez's house and you leave your stuff in the car only grabbing your phone
You knock on the door and some girl answers it
"Uhhhh hello?"
"H-hi is fezco home"
"Ohhh your marissa"
"Yeah and you are?"
"Faye."
"Nice to meet you Faye. You can call me mar."
"Mar-"
"Is this marry?"
"Umm it's marissa but you can call me mar..
And you must be fez?"
"Yeah. Come in"
You go in and you yawn
"Tired?"
"Yeah I haven't slept for 2 days. And I'm sorry about this.
"It's all good. No troubles.
You see a boy on the table counting money while staring at You with a pissed facial expression.
"Uhhh who's that. And what's his problem."
"Oh that's my brotha' ash. He's 16. And I don't know.."
"My problem is you got 2 bitches in the house and i'on want them here."
"Oh I can go.."
"No.stay,and Ash shut yo face hole and keep countin' that cash boy"
He rolls his eyes and goes back to what he's doing
"You have to sleep in ash's room though, cause Faye is on the couch.."
"Bruh i already said i don't want them here and now I gotta sleep with one of 'em?"
"Yes boy now shut up."
"What the fuck bro" he mumbled under his breath
"Can I get my bag out of the car..."
"Yeah go ahead"
"You go outside to get your bag and bring it in ash's room" you leave your phone and vapes in the car though. You go to leave the door to go vape in your car but then fezco stops you
"Where you going?"
"Oh I'm going to just listen to music in my car.."
You didn't know he was a drug dealer. And you didn't want him to know that you vaped.
"Oh ok take your time but don't have it too loud
I'on wanna get a noise complaint"
"Okay."
You sit in your car with the doors unlocked and you play music and vape." You start talking to yourself about random shit. Just to get it off your chest
"Why me."
It starts to rain but you don't care because your lost
In your thoughts.
You start crying without realizing and without knowing ash is watching you from the window in his room.
Ashes pov:
Oh my god. I feel so bad watching her sit in the car.. she looks absolutely miserable....
I feel bad about what I said... should I go out to help her? No... I feel like she won't wanna talk to me..
I'll just wait for her to come in.... She's also oddly pretty.... Wait ashtray don't say that your supposed to hate her... but I feel bad...
Back to your pov
You wipe your tears and find a blade in the console so you pick it up and slit your wrist again.
You grab a napkin and just let it dry out
Ash was watching you the whole time and his
Heart dropped... he walked away from the window and sat on his bed thinking to himself that he had
To help you and prevent you from doing it again...
You grab your vape and phone and then lock your car leaving the blade on the seat. You walk inside and you head to ashes room to see him staring at you
God he's so hot. Wait don't say that you just met the guy...
"Hey ma."
"Ma?"
"Yep it's my new nickname for you."
"Oh okay..." you sit on the floor and lay.
"What the fuck are you doing?"
"Trying to sleep."
"Not on the floor you ain't. Get your ass up here."
"Okay jeez"
"I may hate you but I also don't know shit about
You so you might not be that bad."
"Then you'll just have to get to know me."
You guys make eye contact but he just clears his throat..
"I'm going to bed then" he says
"Oh ok goodnight you say sitting up as he takes his
Shirt off and lays down and you can't help yourself from staring.
"Like what you see"
"Wha- no..."
"Yeah mhm"
He sits up too and just sits on his phone
"I thought you said you were going to sleep
"And I didn't think you was my mom?"
"Bro i was just saying" and he chuckles.
You sigh deeply and ask him where the bathroom is
"When you exit my room it's down the hall to the left."
"Ok thanks" you grab a pair of shorts and then you say shit
"What's up?"
"All my shirts are dirty..."
He sighs and grabs an oversized shirt and hands it to you
"Thanks"
"Yep."
You go to the bathroom and change not even realizing that you had the scars on your legs still
You walk into the room and sit on the bed and ash is staring at your legs...
"What?"
"Why is there scars on your legs?"
You look and see the cuts
"Oh fuck those are from.. a car accident I was in"
"Don't lie mar. I know that you SH I saw you do it in your car."
You open your mouth...
"I- umm it's kinda-"
He pulls you into a hug without you getting to finish your sentence.
"Don't do that shit mar."
You can't help but start to cry in his arms
"It's ok. But you should really get some sleep"
You nod and wipe your tears away then lay down on your side and eventually fall asleep.

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AN: leave suggestions!!
I am writing part 2 rn!