Music Shorts

#4

OLDER - SASHA ALEX SLOAN

My childhood was unlike everyone else. I know there might be a good number of kids who can relate with me. But I don't want anyone to relate with me.

I was born as the happiest baby of the world. My parents were best. We were the sweetest family of all. They were my inspiration. They brought everything I wanted. They were superhuman to me. I always wanted to become like them - the most kindest, sweetest, strongest people. They could handle anything. But 'the older I get, the more that I see', I figured out that, my parents are actually not that seem to be.

When I was like 5, I first saw them to fight. They were shouting at each other. That was literally a new side of my parents. I panicked a lot. My thoughts were like - "They aren't my parents. My dad and mom never fight. They might have kidnapped them. Where they took my mom and dad?"
I started to cry out louder. They first didn't notice me that I was crying. But when they did, they understood their fault and started to console me like nothing happened. They were just joking around. I made them to do pinky promise to me that they wouldn't fight any more.

But they gave fuck to my shitty promises and continued their dispute. I didn't know but that wasn't the first day, they used to argue with one another each and every night.

Previously they bicker in secret but day by day the feud between
come bigger. They started to fight like cat and dog in front me. The little me was so stupid that it embarrasses me now. I used to care about the words they exchanged and cried out louder in hope that they will stop for the seek of mine. But they never did.

Once my dad beat my mom. I tried to stop him but.... he pulled me away too. I never knew the dad whom I used to imagine as my prince like the Cinderella's prince, would hurt me like that.

However, later on that day my mom left me in my dad's place and when to her dad's home means grandpa's home. I was about to freck out thinking about the situations that could be happen next like my mom and dad will become separated. I'd live either with my mom or with my dad. I started to imagine whom would I choose to stay with. I couldn't choose between them. I lied in my room for the whole day, crying and thinking what will happen next.

But my mom came back with a bold face after a day. I was so happy that they didn't split. I can't express how much happy I was then. Though now I feel it'd be better if they had spilited after that. But I had a quiry that why didn't they split like other couples after having a serious fight like this. I knew about divorce very well as I heard from my classmates how their parents argue with one another and split and fight in court for getting their kids.

I hope you guys didn't think, they did stop fighting after that. No, they didn't. I rather came to know they were always like this. I used to feel bad cause I thought this all is because me. My birth led them to this unhappy life. When I was upset thinking this my grandma told me that it's not my fault and not to worry everything would be alright. Granny was wrong slightly as nothing has changed a little bit yet.

But I got used to with this. Now it's so normal that my mom and dad would fight. They would quarrel with silly matter, doubt each others' trustworthiness. I don't care what they do, what they fight about. But I can't control when my dad raises his hand on my mom. I also care about my dad but when he does so I feel so helpless.

One thing I learned from their relationship: no matter how much you are committed to a relationship, you have to move on at the right moment to stay safe.

And thus today I am gonna break up with my boyfriend. I thought I won't be like my parents. I won't ever fight with my love. But 'I was a kid back then.' I'm their kid. It doesn't matter how much I hate their characters, at the end I'm their successor.

This isn't my first boyfriend. I already have tried 3. None of them worked. But I don't wanna ended up like my parents. I don't want to be hurt from love. 'Loving is hard, it don't always work.' I just try my best to get hurt from nither of them.

Love is a previous thing. Everyone gets married. Everyone falls for another person. But only few of them get the test of real love.

Real love doesn't come in our life like the drama scene that it could be easy to figure out who's he or who's she. Cold breeze doesn't blow around, hair doesn't fly in air or you don't crash on the guys body on the first meet to make a moment.

I believe God has made a person for everyone and let them to meet at least once in their life but it's human failure they can't figure it out within that short notice.

I don't think I can figure it out. I'm loser like any other. I just want the almighty to lead me. Until then I meet him, 'till I figured out; I'll 'let someone go.'

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And here's end the story on my favourite lady singer's song 'Older' by Sasha Sloan.
I really don't want anyone to relate to this story. Cuz there is a line in the song like "I used to close my eyes and pray for a whole 'nother family". This line literally touches my heart. To be honest I'm quite satisfied writing this story. If you don't like it, it's upto you. Cause it's the first time I cried while writing 💢
I'll suggest everyone to listen this song cause I missed a lots of point. For this song, I tried to focus on the meaning of the song rather than making it a fictional story. Still ig I'm failed as the every single of this song is notable.
That's all
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