left alone

chapter 1

Sarah's POV

I woke up to the sound of my alarm clock ringing in my ear. I reached my hand over and started pounding on the snooze button.

"ughhh mondays." I groaned. I got out of bed and headed towards my closet to find what I wanted to wear.

I stared at my closet for what seemed like an hour but was really just five minutes.

"I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR!" I screamed in frustration and threw the hangers everywhere.
Then I gave up and threw on my sweatshirt that dad gave me and my bleached skinny jeans that had actual pockets.

then I headed downstairs to find my little brother sitting on the couch watching TV.

"good morning boo." I always called him boo because when he was little he would run up behind you and yell BOO!

"mornin sar-bear." he really didn't have any good nicknames for me.

I ran up to the fridge and pulled out 3 eggs, butter and a pan.
it was 6:45 am and school started at 7:30.
Plenty of time.

once I finished making the eggs I sat down and started to play on my phone. same old social media, really nothing new.

"good morning! how are my whittle baby's!" she said as she pinched my cheeks.

"I'm ok." I said laughing as she let go.

"I'll be back I need to go brush my teeth."
I started to run up the stairs and into the bathroom.
I stared at myself.

"ugh I'm so fat and ugly." I said pinching my full stomach.

I got out my brush and untangled my hair.

my hair was a dirty blonde with black highlights underneath. I liked it but my dad didn't. he was abusive. I didn't like him much.

my dad always pointed out how fat I was. I was only 96 pounds but he still saw me as ugly and fat. I guess some things don't change.

I ran back downstairs and got my shoes on and picked up my backpack, waved goodbye to my mom and brother and left.

The cool spring breeze lightly rubbed against my face as I walked to the bus stop.

"oh god." I said to myself rolling my eyes.
it's him I thought.he can't see me or else he will make me drive with him. he will hit me if I say something wrong or ignore him.

without thinking I ran into the woods behind me and starting leaping forward as fast as I could.

"not today" I thought.
My dad didn't see me. or at least I hope he didn't. 3 months ago he smacked my face because I told him I got an A- on my math quiz we studied for.

"Useless thing. Get a life you are 13!" he always told me.

then I was lost. I looked around and found no where that was familiar. I thought to myself I would camp out here a bit. Stay away. Id tell my mom only and let that be that.

I texted my mom and she told me to head back home. I told her that is be back in time for dinner tonight. Deal I told her. And deal she said back.

I walked straight to the old stump and sat there scrolling through my phone.

And yes I missed my bus but I didn't care. School didn't matter anymore. My father was back and he was out to kill me. I could feel it in my gut.