Love hurts...I know

the dream that was a reality

Walking into a cafe , my eyes immediately searched for his. As I found him, the smile and excitement on my face started to falter.

There he was, not alone, but with my best friend, Lin. My head was puzzled with multiple questions, what were they doing together? My eyes didn't leave them, I saw my boyfriend, Adrian, pull in my bestfriend closer to him..as I stood there in the distance, their lips met. My heart clenched, I swallowed the bile in my throat, tears about to run down my face, I forced my feet to start moving and make me get out of that place. The sight was too unbearable to keep watching, turning around ready to grab the door handle, I heard a voice call out my name

"Zhar! Zha-zharmaigne!" it was Lin, she probably saw me..

"Shit..just walk out..ignore them" I muttered to myself still holding onto the handle

Lin got out of her seat, I saw her silhouette reflect on the window watching it slowly approaching me followed by Adrian who ran past her to get to me...I pushed the door and ran out of the cafe.

As I exit the shop, my body was drenched in rain, I stood there in the rain with tears running down my face...I was about to walk towards the pedestrian crossing to catch the bus across the street when he grabbed my hand, I didn't hesitate to snatch my hand away nor to look at him.

"Zhar I can explain-" he shouted

His sentence cut off as his voice slowly faded as I ran across the street, I don't need an explanation, my eyes already witnessed it, I don't need both of their crap excuses spewing out of their mouths.

This has been happening for months yet I decided to leave it be, I loved him so I forgave him. He thought I didn't know neither did she, thought it was just a one time thing but here it was, finally seeing them both together was enough for me to actually let go...
Why should my heart continue to ache? It's not like it's the first time I found out, it's far from the first time.

Stepping onto the bus, my head echoed with voices

"You got hurt because you didn't say anything"
                                                       "could you be more foolish"
"wasted your time on someone who didn't even love you"

glancing through the window watching the rain drops race each other to the end of the sill, a tear dropped from my eye as my heart felt like a hole started to form through it, the feeling struck me so bad, because he was the one who pulled me out of the dark, made me happy just to leave and lie to me in the end.

Slowly awakening from my lucid dream, I got out of our bed, slowly walking to the balcony, I glance back at his sleeping figure...everything above was true it wasn't just a dream, not only did she silently suffer from a heartbreak but also her mental health..she just couldn't help it anymore. Zharmaigne gripped onto the bars of the balcony as she calmly climbed it.

" The night sky looks so beautiful tonight..this is the last time I'll see you my love, goodbye and thank you for everything" muttering as I looked back

Her body fell from the 20th floor, looking at the starry night as she plunged into the darkness down below, reaching the ground, her figure crashed into the hard surface, suffering heavy bleeding, she smiled for the last time slowly closing her eyes.