Stay Awhile? (A Johnnie Guilbert FanFic)

Chapter 10

YO WHATS UP GUYS IM BACK AND BETTER THAN EVER! Okay that might be a bit of a lie, but I am back. This story was getting kinda bad and I realized that, so I'm kind of just going to skip a lot of time so I can make it better. It's one month later. Btw this will probably be a short chapter. you may want to go back and read the end of the last chapter. I was going to just copy it and paste it here, but my phones being stupid so I can't. sorry!•

•lyrics POV•

(1 month later)

It's been 3 weeks Johnnie and I officially broke up. We tried to make it work for awhile but we eventually had the mutual agreement that we should just break up.

Honestly? I've been a mess. The only good thing that has come out of it was that I moved in with Sam. And she doesn't make me pay rent like I was starting to do with Bryan and Johnnie. So, since I started working at Hot Topic everyday, all the time, I have a lot of money to spend and save up.

Of course I've gone on the occasional shopping spree with Sam and some of her friends, but other than I'm trying to save it up to get an apartment for myself. It's going to be scary though, and I'm kind of afraid of myself being alone.

I've already slipped back into depression. Waking up from nightmares, crying, just feeling numb sometimes, never being fully happy.... And self harm. I've tried to be strong for so long, so long, but the day after I left Johnnie and Bryan's apartment I went to Sam's, locked myself in the bathroom, and relapsed.

God it felt so good. So good, yet really bad at the same time. I was so ashamed of the cuts I was making, yet they sent some kind of relief through me. They made me calmer. Made me seem more alive.

But I think Sam has noticed how sad I've been recently, because she keeps asking me to do stuff with her all the time. Like right now we're on our way to an amusement park called Holiday World. And of course I want to spend time with Sam and have fun today, but there's a water park here and I'm really not comfortable enough with my body to go out there.

At the thought of this I groan, making Sam look at me.

"What? What is it this time Lyric? Are you upset because Johnnie and you broke up? Is it because you're working more lately? Or is it just because you hate me now?!" I try to take her words in calmly, even though she's spitting them at me like venom.

"Sam I'm sorry I just really don't want to go in the water park today." I say, trying to sound calm. But that just makes her even more mad

"I don't understand Lyr! I've been trying to make you happy and comfortable but all you do is complain! Please, just give me one reason why you don't want to go to Holiday World!" She screams and then grips my wrist.

I wince in pain but trying to cover it up by pretending to laugh like I do when I'm mad, but she sees me wince and let's go of my arm.

Her eyes soften, "oh." And she turned the car around and headed home, not speaking the whole ride there.

~at home~

I sat in my room, blaring Pierce the veil and crying. Sam still hadn't apologized. So I sat here, listening to one of my favorite bands, and scrolling through Twitter. When I came across a picture of Johnnie I start to cry harder, scrolling past it quickly, not realizing that I favorited it.

After half an hour of Twitter I fell asleep. When I woke up I would have a big surprise.

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Ok so sorry I haven't updated in forever, I just needed a break from writing. Buuuuttttt I will start updating more frequently. Thanks to those who are still reading!