Poetry (Ongoing)

Sentiment

Living is hard
And dying alone is harder
Yet I wanted to die solitary
I care about every moment
But I feel like I don't care entirely

I wanted to scream
But found no voice within
I wanted to cry
Yet shed no tears

No one else besides me
For they don't understand
No one listens eagerly
To my undying hopes of liberty

My past still tormented me
It's always at my door
It didn't leave me unscathed
It strikes within my soul

The morning seems an ending
For my eyes were dimmed by gray
I feel no contentment
For fear and despair are on the way

I feel no true love,
But love keeps me from going
My emotions became uncertain
'Coz I only got, was speculations.

The only option I got
Is lying on my deathbed
To give a message to everybody
Not to discriminate against me

For no one tried to listen
When I wanted their ears
No one truly assisted
When I screamed for their help

The pain I felt inside
Excruciating me deep within
Yet, no one giving me concern
No solace, just disappointments

I know I must endure
Through thick and thin, I should move on
But my past, I can't ignore
It's pulling me down, I was torn

I just want to have somebody
To share my side of the story
To be my confidante
Without even doubting me

But I guess it's never easy
To gain some loyalty
People's minds are like pests
Infecting the good part of me.