All for us

Chapter 24: Script

We were shooting the movie when it was time to shoot the argument, it's basically the reason why Hailee's character killed Vanessa's. The reason was because she told her that she was better than her and that she's nothing without her, that she will never commit to something actually herself, I explained that to them. 

Hailee: So how do I act it.

Me: You look at her vulnerably, cause you depend on her. She's your rock but she's playing you. You realize that when you say "it was never about me was it?". Then you start smiling and crying progressively while she explains that she never cared and you're nothing. 

Austin: How lovely. 

Me *laughing*: Yeah well it's in the script I wrote Austin. 

Austin *laughing*: What's the inspiration?

Me *laughing*: Worst fears and experiences!

Austin: Oh. 

Me: Don't worry I was joking. I mean no I wasn't but ignore that let's just roll. 

I started filming until I realized how good of an actor Hailee was. Everything she did just felt right, she was extremely talented. Vanessa started saying her horrible lines. 

Vanessa: You are pathetic! Without me you're nothing, you shouldn't be here. You can't do nothing, so go ahead stop being friends with me, I don't care but careful because you'll be alone all alone. 

Hailee: You cared? You said you fucking cared!

Vanessa: Oh grow up, I lied! 

Me: And cut!

Hailee looked at me eyes full of tears, she seemed off. Vanessa started talking about how good she was in the scene. Hailee still had tears in her eyes. That was bothering me.

Me: Pull out your wrist. 

She did, I took her into my room and told her to sit down which she did. 

Hailee: What's wrong? 

She said as if she was okay. Maybe I was wrong maybe she was fine but I had to check on her. 

Me: I'm asking you the same thing. You are an amazing actress Hailee but tears not felt don't hold on for that long. What's wrong?

Hailee: You're not the only one who experienced this scenario. 

Her voice was cracking, she was holding tears, suffocating her emotions. I sat next to her and looked into her eyes; She finally couldn't hold it in anymore has she collapsed into my arms. Never letting her go, I dragged us to my pillow, she laid down on my stomach, sobbing, as I was holding her tightly reassuring her. 

Hailee: I'm sorry it's stupid. 

Me: Tell me, if you need to, if you don't wanna it's fine. 

Hailee: I had these types of friends in high school. There's not much to say, it's just it haunted me for a long time and still does sometimes. Plus I have that all weight thing on my mind. 

Vanessa: Well you could eat less it would't hurt. 

There she was standing by the door, I was about to get up but Hailee sat up next to me holding very tightly my arm. 

Me: Don't you ever talk to her like that again. 

Vanessa: Oh shut up slut, I wasn't talking to you!

Hailee: What did you call her?

Vanessa: A slut. 

Me:Oh come on! So what? Yes I'm fucking your brother, what's the big deal! Grow up. 

She got out of the room living us very upset. 

Me: Hailee you're not fat. They say that about the best, they have to make up a physical flaw because you don't have any. 

She thanked me and proposed me to watch an episode of Boy meets world to try to relax before going back to see Vanessa. Once the episode finished we got down stairs to meet a very upset Matthew, a confused Austin and a joyful Vanessa. 

Matthew: It's not a big deal to fuck me uh? You just want that and you're gonna break up? 

Me: What no! Why would you-

Vanessa: Cause Matthew heard you say it. 

Matthew: Yeah and Vanessa explained what I heard. 

Me: No I-

Matthew: I thought you wanted more than that. 

I didn't know what to say, I didn't want to loose him again. He got out of the room to go outside. He was walking very rapidly so it was hard to catch up once I finally did I started explaining. 

Me: I was telling Vanessa to stop calling me a slut, I told her that I was fucking you and that it wasn't a big deal. But I meant it's not a big deal for her. It is for me Matthew. 

Matthew: Really? 

Me: Really. Why are you so easily doubting it? 

Matthew: Cause I'm afraid to loose you. 

Me: Don't be. 

Matthew: Yeah well that's easy to say Maya! My ex just dropped me, cheated, and was awful. So yeah Maya sorry to have those issues!

Me: Why are mad at me? I didn't say a thing!

Matthew: I'm afraid that you're lying to me! You're always lying to me. You never tell me when you have a problem or when something's wrong. So why wouldn't you be lying now?!

Me: Fuck Matthew a relationship is about trust!

Matthew: Then trust me! You don't trust me, you think I'm gonna hurt you! You walls are always up Maya. Fuck I wanna know when something's wrong! 

Me: Why?! Why do you wanna know?!

Matthew: Cause I love you Maya!

My heart skipped a beat earring those words. He loved me. He actually loved me, he didn't liked me. He loved me. Did I loved him? Of course I loved him. But wasn't it too soon? Nah it wasn't. Was it? Should I say it back? Oh hell fuck it.

Me: You- You love me? 

Matthew: Yeah I love you! Of course I love you Maya. That doesn't look like love to you? I'm just scared of you lying about everything. What if you didn't just lie about your problems, what if you lied about the way you feel about me? 

I kissed him roughly, he grabbed my waist for stability. I pulled back and looked at him deeply in his eyes. 

Me: I won't lie anymore. I won't lie about how I feel. I am gonna trust you even though I'm afraid to get hurt. 

Matthew: Why would I believe that? 

Me: Because I love you too Matthew. 

He kissed me pulling me closer and closer to him. He pulled away a big smile on his face. We came back inside smiling like two children who had ice cream. 

Hailee: Hey hun.

I giggled. She smiled at me.

Me: Hey Hailee!

Hailee: Why are you smiling like that?

Me: He said he loved me. 

Vanessa: Oh no he doesn't. 

Austin: Shut up Vanessa. And what did you say Maya?

Matthew: She said it back!

Vanessa: It won't last. 

We ignored what she said and decided to watch a movie for the rest of the night. I fell asleep in Matthew's arms, I felt protected in his arms as if nothing could happen to me. I felt him move and carry me into our bedroom. He putted me in his arms getting that same feeling. 

I fell asleep peacefully, no nightmares were present when he was there. I felt loved and protected, all I ever wanted.

To be continued...