What does it feel like?

Note: what does it feel like?
Do you know what's it's like sitting here feeling useless, feeling like you could have done something but you didn't? In instances between choosing life or death, every second counts. As the guilt just pushes you down not letting you breath thinking of everything that just happened. As it pressures you to come out clean and say it . You know you can't.. what will the others think...? What can you say who could you tell? To feed that anger all that rage that buildsii up. How do you get rid of it all? Just like sadness that bottles up inside you. Sometimes you just feel like breaking down nd start balling up In tears. What do you do? You can't possibly tell them. Can you? Can't you just tell them you want a sammich? Preferably a pb&j? Did you ever think you could find such happiness in food? Some of us today don't think of the little things that could change everything in life. So much as a sammich could make many people happy. Are we just blind of the simple things in life?