Maybe If

The Beginning

 

    It was as if he saw something within her, something she'd never known to even exist. Breaking down her walls that she worked so hard to build one by one making her feel as if he was her home. As warmth filled her heart while he caresses her cheek telling her that everything would be okay while she drowns herself in her pain. Filling her mind with words of honey, sticky and sweet knowing that it would have been enough to calm her insecure heart. "For he who picked her up as she fell", telling her it was safe to be invulnerable and that she should not carry the labels that were not her fault.

   
     In a room where everyone was against her, he was there for her in a way and that was already enough to keep her from losing herself again. Being her childhood friend, Jaye had seen many shades of her, so many that he wondered if he actually knew her. At times she would seem social and fun to be with but sometimes she was quiet, staring at an empty space as if her presence was a reminder that she did not belong. Not knowing what she had to go through at such a tender age made him feel curious about her and that was the beginning of his challenge to get to know her. He never truly cared about her; he was only interested in unravelling the walls that she had built and without knowing she fell into his trap.

     
      For how could she have known? He was always there for her in so many ways that she could not even describe, knowing that he was never true did such a great impact on her mentally. Maybe if she wasn't so insecure, she would have never fallen for his tricks or maybe if she had avoided him from the start, things would not have to end like this but all these "maybe if's" are just another method to console herself.

     During their time together, his voice would keep her awake throughout the night as the night begins to darken, she felt her eyes start to close, letting in the world of dreams come to her slowly knowing that he was there to keep her safe from all her nightmares. She was never much of a dreamer, every time she slept, she faced darkness in her "dreams" but for the first time she had a dream, a dream that showed her of her future. How did they even begin? Well, it started with a hello but it ended with him apologising to her over and over again.

     He caught her attention from the beginning, the way he smiled as if he had no worries and how his eyes shone as if they were stars, to her astonishment, he slowly approached her complimenting her and it was at that very moment their friendship that slowly evolved to something more. He knew that if he wanted to find out more about her being her friend was not enough, he had to be something more. Like a predator waiting for its prey, Maeve was oblivious to what was happening around her, he seemed like such a sweet soul that she would have never known about the lies behind his words. She was always careful when it came to letting people in but when it came to him, she broke her rules repeatedly.