a usually would be able to wake up pretty early, not anymore, i have trouble sleeping, no wonder i feel so empty, but i need to suck it up. i have to stay healthy, what if i get hurt or sick what would happen, am worried.. i dont wanna get sick cause it hurts, coughing non stop. Basically any pain that could happen to you, humans dont deserve, does god not like me anymore? Have i became a sinner? did i do something wrong? What did i sin. "God cares about you" why shall god give me this type of treatment? Why is life like that? Did i not pray? Did i forget to treat my family good? Am a bad child, doing such a thing being dirty minded? Am a bad person for beating someone up? Isnt that a sin? But what if they were being rude? I think i sinned. i no longer want to be a sinner, i wish to be a angel when i die, dear god please have mercy on me. am dumb, i dont know what i have brought myself to, i really did a bad choice. I promise i'll do better while i grow older, i love you god. but.. why would you let me feel this pain? Why would you let me experience this pain? is that how cruel the world is.. i just know that they're people who are super kind. Just like you. Dear god... i wish my family to be healthy. I dont wanna lose anyone.. i dont want anyone to die. as the youngest child. we i watch my family members die? as grandma? Thank you for putting her to peace. I will always pray for her, thank you god. please tell her i would love to make more memories with her in heaven. Therefore i do not plan doing a sin. i wont harm myself anymore. I promise you. I wont scream at my parents, i wont disrespect. please god have mercy on me. Please i beg you god.. i love you.
- ally.
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Short Storynothing but a simple novel about my daily thoughts, questions, curious about, die for .
