The girl

getting hurt

Well imma get hurt. I'm going to get hurt. I always end up getting hurt in the end. It happens so much I should probably be used to it by now but I'm not. I never will be. That pain is to much for me to handle and I know I can never make it to where I will possibly be the slightest bit used to it either. I don't have any problem.woth that though.

I'm gonna get hurt because of the thing Noah and it's gonna make me crumble. Actually I take that back I already am crumbling. I'm keeping it on the I side for now but sooner or later I'm gonna end up letting it slip. I always do.

And not only that I'm not feeling very good either. Ever since last night I've just been feeling like shit. I don't even know what I did. Maybe it was just going outside but whatever this is I don't exactly want it to go away yet. I know how weird that sounds but man it could really help me in the long run.

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Well this is a post page or whatever. This is from when I was still in school ha.

I feel like shit. I pushed Connor away and I told him I hated him because he said I shouldn't kill myself I'd me and bunny broke up. I was pissed he has no right to ever say things like that to me. It's not any of his business what so ever.

Something is always going wrong man I swear. I can never go long before something else happens again. I know people say that's what gets you through life but god why does it have to happen to me. Or just why can't I handle it? I get it I'm a horrible person but like hiding who I really am. Nobody really knows and that's probably for the better.

I just I don't know anymore I feel like I'm saying the same things over and over again. Like my like is playing on loop and I have no idea how to stop it. I hate feeling like that ya know? I think I'm gonna go listen to music. This will just be a small thing for now