I know, right from the very start. There is no turning back.
I have no idea. All I know is sumama ako sa kanya tapos pagkagising ko nandito na ako sa isang malaking silid. Maraming ilaw halos ako lang ang laman ng silid na ito, it's a white room na sa sobrang laki nakakapagtakang wala man lang gamit o anumang bagay na makakapagpuna ng malaking espasyo sa silid na ito.
"I told you to get her not kidnapped her!" sabi ng galit na lalaki na sa tingin ko ay ang mastermind sa kalokohang ito. Yeah, guess it is a stupid plan of him or whoever that person was, but as long as na makalabas ako sa silid na 'to kung makakalabas man, I will teach him how to treat a girl right.
"S-sir, ganun din naman po yun eh. Magkaiba lang ng spelling at pronounciation." Natatakot na sabi ng lalaking mataba na mga 6'3 ang taas. Siya yung tumulong sa akin kanina bago ako mapadpad dito.
"Aba, Pinipilosopo mo ba ako? Kung ano yang ikinalaki mo, yan namang ikinakitid ng utak mo! Get out of here you son of a-" Napatigil ang lalaki sa pagsasalita ng mapansin ang malakas na kalabog na nagmula sa kabilang silid.
Pinipilit kong makalabas ngunit wala talaga akong maisip na paraan kung paano. "God, please let me get out of here. There's no way I'm staying here, please, please." Nerbyos akong nagdadasal habang nararamdaman ko ang mga mabibigat na yabag ng paa patungo sa kinaroroonan ko. "He is here, Oh, God...sa inyo ko na po pinapaubaya ang sarili ko kayo na po ang bahala sa akin." Sabi ko hanggang sa tuluyan ng tumulo ang mga luha sa aking mga mata.
"B-babe why are you crying?" He comes closer to me and hug me tight while stroking my hair, I don't know but somehow it feels like all the pain I'm carrying right now suddenly fades away. It is like I'm in his safe place yet I am not. I wanted to be in his open arms, embracing each other making me feel like I'm the only person he wanted more than he needed.
But it was too late, it was a month ago since I decided to broke up with him. I saw him with other girl, his arm draped on her waist and he seemed so happy with her. She is Jas, bestfriend of my boyfriend. After that break up, I admit that I still loved him, I always will.
"B-bakit ako nandito? I-ikaw ba ang dahilan kaya ako napunta dito?" Humiwalay ako sa kanyang bisig at tinitigan siya sa kanyang mapupungay na mata.
"I am sorry but I have to do this, wala na akong ibang maisip na paraan para mabawi ka sa kanya. I contact you pero wala kang respond sa mga text and calls or even emails na ipinadala ko sayo. I'm miserable now, you happy?" Nangingilid na ang luha sa kanyang mata na tila ba gusto ng kumawala.
A part of me says yes, but the other half says no, I am not. That part of me is the reason why I am experiencing this kind of love, why I feel this way towards him even if this part of me was broken and hurt a thousand times. That part is no other than my heart. Sa sitwasyong ito alam kong dehado ako dahil wala akong magawa kundi pairalin kung ano ang nararamdaman ko, hinayaan kong ito ang magmanipula sa sarili ko at sa pagkakataong iyon sana tama ang aking desisyon...
"No, Im not and never will. Masakit man ang dulot ng nakaraan sa atin but I will not let it ruined our future, I still love you Frank, hayaan mo muna akong pagisipan 'to. I think it is better if we both have time to think about it."
"I want you to know that I love you every inch of you. I miss you babe, In my life all I want is you, I need you please come back to me. Im begging you please..." Sincerity comes through his mouth and I don't know what to say.
"It is hard for me but please let me go..paano mo mahahanap ang tunay mong kaligayahan kung patuloy kang umaasa sa nakaraan mo. Letting go does not mean you have to forget. If you really love me you will set me free, accept it..all you need is acceptance, Frank."
"How can I accept a fact that you can no longer be with me and all I can do is to wait the day until you comeback for me, I'm too much in pain now, why did you left me? You promised me that you won't leave me, right? you are all that I have.." Tears running down to his cheeks, it is so painful to see crying the man you love because of you.
"F-frank, I don't know why these things have to happen. Maybe, it is time for me to say goodbye and it's time for you to let me go, let me find where I can be happy because loving me so much is like I'm on a trap that has no way out, I can't escape. In myself, I want to stay in that trap only to be with you because I love you but I realized that I am making this hard for you and me. I do not want to see you like this, suffering and blaming yourself because of me. I want you to be happy too."
There is no word from him. All I heard was the sobbed of a man who keeps on crying.
"I love you, Goodbye Frank." I said.
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"Sam...Sam!" Nagising ako sa realidad na wala na akong Sam na babalikan at hihintayin pa. She died on a car accident exactly after we broke up. Nalaman kong nung araw na yun ay papunta siya sa condo ko para sabihin ang lahat ng nangyari at nararamdaman niya pero huli na ang lahat bago pa mangyari iyon.
3 years ago na ang nakalipas mula ng mangyari ang trahedyang iyon and I finally moved on. Who would have thought na kakayanin kong makamoved on sa ganung sitwasyon ko. I let her go, at first the pain was too unbearable hanggang sa natutunan kong tanggapin ang realidad na patuloy na humahampas sa akin ng katotohanan na wala na siya. I can't undo all of that but I believed that I can fix it with all of my heart to make it right. So I did.
"Frank, honey! Stop doing that it annoys me!" She irritably said.
"Jas, you know honey I just can't resist you and your gorgeous body..you know how much I Iove you and I will do anything just for you, I will not let anyone hurt you..understand honey?" He said and kissed my forehead.
"I understand honey, I love you."
"I love you too and always will, honey." They looked into each others eyes, no words can express how much they love each other and passionately kissed it's like an endless love for them.
"I am happy for you Frank, now that you have found your happiness."
Bumitaw si Frank sa paghalik ng may marinig siyang boses ng babae and now he knew who was it, there is a smile written all over his face and whisper,
"I am happy for you too, Sam."
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LJ Note:
Yo! This was my first one shot story. So what do you guys think? Haha. Love you all. Be well :*
