My Simple Love Story

My name is Ei and I'm 26 years old. I am living such a happy life right now. Are you curious about my happy life right now? If so, then I'll be glad to tell you about my simple, love story. Let's start, shall we?

I was born on the 14th of February or "Valentine's day". It is a day where people send love and affection to their lovers, friends and family. My parents were very happy to have me born along with my twin sister on Valentine's day. I was 3 minutes older than Ellie, my twin sister. Because we were twins we looked exactly the same except for our eyes. We had the same brown hair, oval shaped face, beautiful smile but our eye colors were different. She got my mother's blue colored eyes while I got my father's green colored eyes. They equally loved us even if one's eye color was prettier. 

Growing up, me and my sister got along well. We would always play, laugh, sleep and even shower together when we were children. She was honest, kind, brave and many more. She was the best sister I could ever have. The gap of her and being perfect was so narrow whereas my gap was getting bigger and bigger. I was shy, fearful and a liar. She would confess when she has done something wrong but I couldn't. I was a coward. I couldn't bring myself to admit my wrongdoings. I admired my twin sister a lot, I wished I could be just like her. We were twin sisters so why can't I also have her characteristics? I was still a young child so people didn't get annoyed by me and even thought I was cute.

When we were both 4 years old we started attending pre-school. We were both on the limelight because we were both beautiful and look exactly the same. Our classmates kept looking and talking at us. One of those classmates was named Kevin. He had blonde hair and was cute. He wasn't smart nor dumb, he was just average. He was funny and nice. He became me and my sister's best friend. We three would always sit and play together. He sometimes would mistake Ellie as me and me as Ellie. I didn't mind it because it was normal and would often happen. After years gone by, the three of us attended the same school. Me and my sister's parents became friends with his parents so there wasn't a problem. He would help me when I had problems and I would also help him if he had problems. Of course, he did also help my sister and she also helped him but I was just really happy.

 I think I was 8 when I started having feelings for Kevin. It was that day when my sister asked him on who he thinks is better between the two of us. He hesitated for a while then said "Hmm I think it's Ei!" I was surprised. My sister didn't mind that he chose me and not her. She just cheerfully said "Nice!!" I couldn't believe he chose me. Ellie was definitely a lot better than me. She was more easygoing, nicer, more honest and even had the prettier eyes so why did he choose me? I felt surprised and happy. I of course didn't realize my romantic feelings towards him because I was just a child but I began to talk to him more and more. I began practicing to be really good at everything for him to like me more. Soon I was the smartest one on class. My parents were very proud on both me and my sister. 

And it was 4 years later when we were 12 that I realized my feelings for him. We three were very close to each other and so Kevin told us that he had a crush on someone in our class. He told us the name and I got jealous.. I thought to myself before "Huh? Why am I feeling sad and angry at the same time? Shouldn't I be happy for him..? Why do I want to be me instead.. Do I like him?". I kept thinking and thinking a lot and it seemed that I did like him. Then I kept getting shy in front of him. Considering me and Kevin's close friendship I thought that I had a chance for him in the future.

 So... I waited. Waited for him to like me. Waited for him to realize my feelings for him. Waited for him to turn around and look at me. I guess all those waiting paid off because at my 16th birthday or Valentine's day he confessed to me. My parents held a party for me and my sister's 16th birthday on our house. He of course was invited. Then he confessed to me in front of everyone. He wrote a poem for me and recited it in front of everyone. I was very happy and shocked. I said yes when he asked me "Do you feel the same way as I do?" Everyone cheered and clapped for us. 

We started dating. I felt happy when going to school because I got to meet him. We did lots of fun stuff on the weekends or after classes. We went to an amusement park, ate in restaurants, sang in karaoke and many more. There wasn't a problem at all. There were no fights or anything. Everyone supported us. After years we along with my sister graduated. We were still dating happily. We both got a good job and started living together in a house. Then when we were 23 years old he went down on his knee and proposed to me. I happily said "Yes!" Two months later we got married and we lived happily ever after.

And that is the end of my story. My simple love story... but it was all in my imagination. Yes, the story was true but starting from my 16th birthday everything fell apart. Because the one he confessed to that day wasn't me but someone else... And that someone is none other than my twin sister...... Ellie. I couldn't believe what I was hearing that day. After years of waiting he turned around but he didn't look at me... instead he looked at my twin sister. 

She took the happy ending that I yearned for. I worked hard for him. I became at the top of my class for him. I wasn't shy anymore. I wasn't a coward anymore. And I wasn't a liar anymore. So why did he choose her and not me? He chose me in the past and so why can't he do the same in the present? What changed? I thought I still had a chance for him even if they were married. I thought maybe Kevin would lose his feelings for her and develop feelings for me instead. And Ellie would find someone she likes more. But a month earlier, Ellie got pregnant.. Now I know I have no chance for him. Even if he does develop feelings for me I can't accept his feelings. I can't.. can't do it now that she's pregnant. 

They're still living their happily ever after while I'm here thinking. I kept thinking a lot of "What if" questions. Like, what if I had Ellie's characteristics would things have turned out differently? Would he choose me instead? I know that even if I keep thinking about it there's nothing I can change. I can't turn back to the past. It's already been done. Now I'll just have to sit on the side and watch them have a happy ending with their child. I'll have to slowly accept my fate. 

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