pyscho [hyunho]

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strwminho
hey hyunjin
i miss you
wyd?

eboyhyune
hello
im doing fine
why are you up so late tho?

strwminho
im having trouble falling asleep so i thought i would see if you're awake
why are you up

eboyhyune
whaat? are you okay? you can talk to me if you want to you know
oh right, i was doing some research
:')

strwminho
nah im good
sorry to bother you

eboyhyune
you never bother me minnie
and are you sure that you're okay?

strwminho
yeahh
im good
i should try and go to sleep

eboyhyune
you're acting weird
please talk to me
are you sure you're okay?

read at 2:16

eboyhyune
i know you're reading my msgs min.
fine text me when you feel better

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minho switched his phone off and stared at the dark ceiling for a while, he felt a wave of sadness engulf him and tears started rolling from his eyes out of nowhere, he gently traced the scars on his arm with his finger, he placed his face in his hands and sobbed softly in his hands

he missed hyunjin, he missed the way it was before

hyunjin and minho had met online a few years ago, after months of talking, they considered each other to be best friends and decided to meet up, after meeting hyunjin in person, minho realised that he had fallen for hyunjin and when hyunjin reciprocated the feelings, minho was overjoyed

but that was a tale of the past, now things were different.

how may you ask?

well, minho and hyunjin were both busy and couldn't meet up as often, hyunjin was in his first year of uni and minho was in his last year of uni, minho also worked part time at a café, which left him with little to no time for hyunjin (or himself)

this made minho feel detached from hyunjin, a few years ago when they had met, minho was in his last year of highschool and hyunjin was in his first year of high school, they both started chatting and found comfort in each other

he missed how excited hyunjin was when they texted, he missed how hyunjin would hold his hands when they would meet up, he missed his super rare mall dates with hyunjin, he missed being his one and only

things had changed now

when hyunjin joined uni, he made a group of friends and was quite popular, he also had a best friend named felix, and felix was perfect. in every way felix was better than minho (that's what minho thought), he was a great artist, an amazing cook and hyunjin just adored him.

which made minho a little, not little, very jealous of felix. it seemed as if every conversation hyunjin and minho had, it somehow came down to felix, and hyunjin couldn't seem to praise him enough. whenever hyunjin and minho talked, hyunjin went on about how felix is such a great cook and how his jokes are so funny

minho acted like he loved listening to hyunjin, but deep down inside, he felt unimportant, he felt like he was replaced by this super perfect doll named felix who just had to ruin things for him and hyunjin, but never did minho ever show these feelings of anger or jealousy to hyunjin

instead, he hurt himself.

when he was alone in his apartment with the bathroom door closed, the bathtub overfilling with water, he pressed the cold metal along his skin, it hurt, but the euphoria overpowered the pain, leaving him feel a bit of something that he couldn't explain, he would then treat the cuts and forget about it, untill the next night when the moon would shine again and these thoughts would come back the moment he was alone

maybe he was crazy

but no one knew about it..

so it was okay.