it's around 10:45pm na hindi parin ako umuuwi, pinauwi ko na si Alex kanina since want ko tapusin 'yung duty ko. Ilang oras ko pa siya pinilit bago pumayag. Inayos ko muna yung locker ko bago ako mag record uli sa front desk at umuwi.
Palabas na ako ng hospital when I saw someone figure mga 5'5 ata.. similar sila ng back figure ni ate Aika. I keep walking without looking at the girl at the hospital entrance. My heart is racing nung nilagpasan ko siya, and I'm not sure what's going on with me right now. I just had the sensation that the wind was not on my side today. It's as if I'm suffocating.
I knew na simula nung lumabas ako sa hospital ay sinusundan ako nung babae kanina kaya I decided to stop and look at her. Inayos nya agad 'yung cap nya to hide her face. "Who ar-" i asked her but naputol, bigla siyang nagsalita and nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa boses niya.
"Y/n loves, i heard from Tricia na you passed out daw?" She said, casually. "parang walang nangyari ha? haha" i bitterly laughed. Ate Aika eyes looks at me with a puzzled expression and that moment parang sumabog ako, "Ha! Ate Aika baka hindi mo naalala iniwan nyo ako ng biglaan? Tas bigla ka nalang susulpot and tatanungin mo ako na parang walang nangyari? 9 years ate aika.. 9 years! " I angrily replied, tears running down my cheeks.
I dropped onto my knees in front of her, and she hurried over to hug me. "I'm sorry y/n! I'm really sorry, mama chose to run for vice president 9 years ago, so we decided na lumipat sa Naga muna" Aika said, her voice trembling, and I could tell she was crying as well.
"Please let me explain muna y/n.. please.. I beg you y/n, let us start over." ate Aika said, hindi ko na alam.. galit ako sa kanila pero bat hindi ko siya magawang itulak? I prefer being alone, but without my home, especially without my first love, para akong ninakawan.
Aika could only hear me cry like a baby and hugs me till I calm down. I wipe my tears away and turn away from her so she can't see my face; I hate it when people see my crying face. This is my first time na nag breakdown ako sa harap niya.
After kong kumalma naalala ko 'yung babaeng nabangga and nakita ko sa staircase kaninang umaga. I turn to looked at her and asked, "Siya ba yung babae kaninang umaga? Tricia? ," I said, frustrated, "Tricia is going to start working here na?" I asked again. Nods are all she can do.
"Why now, ate Aika? There are so many ways to approach us! I can't even reach you by Facebook messenger!" I asked, dumbfounded and irritated. "Tricia, begged us na wag kang replyan..muna.. she really likes you.. kahit naman na gusto ka namin contact-in wala kame magawa kasi ayaw namin mabash ka ng mga tao!"
She yelled at me, her voice breaking and tears streaming down her cheeks. Wala bumigay 'rin ako, ayokong nakikita silang mahina. Lumapit ako sa kanya to wipe her tears, "Stop crying ate Aika, marami pa akong questions sa inyo and I know na 'yung sinabi nyo ngayon is not true, siguro one of the reasons lang pero hindi 'yun yung main.. let's talk tomorrow I'll contact you po." tumango lang siya at ang lakas ng mga hikbi niya so nag decide na ako.
As I wipe away her tears with my handkerchief from my bag, I give it to her as a sign of assurance that I will retrieve it and talk to her again. I hugged her one more time after calming down and then started going.
Sumakay ako ng bus without looking back sa kanya.
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Nakauwi ako ng apartment mga 11:58pm na and alam kong tulog na si Alex so naghilamos agad ako at change ng clothes para humiga na. Hindi narin ako kumain since wala ako gana, uminom nalang ako ng maraming tubig para may laman naman tyan ko.
Habang nakahiga ako sa bed ko nagrecall ako ng mga nangyari sa akin ngayong araw, "I met Tricia kaninang umaga, she's my first lo-.." i clear my throat, "and ate Aika ngayong gabi.. what's next? Jillian and Vp Leni tomorrow sa hospital? saksakin nyo nalang ako kung mangyari yon." these were my thoughts all evening.
"saksakin nyo nalang ako"
