Cara Mia

chapter 1:Nightmare

A.n. hey guys for those who read my story when I first published it I was 13 at the time and looking back I found some of the things I wrote were embarrassing but we were all kids at one point. Don't get me wrong I am a kid at heart but I can see how much I have grown in the past couple years. Another to add to you all when I first wrote this with a loving mother and family but let's face it for some of us that is just a fairytale! Yes when I first wrote this I wanted to convey a family that I have always wanted but who gets that?! For those of you that do be thankful because for the rest of us it's what we wish no matter even if we tell ourselves it's better that way. This story is what came from my imagination when I was bored one night. I hope I can relate to all of you in some way or another throughout this book feel free to leave comments and vote I would greatly appreciate the love! I have decided to give this book a second chance but fair warning I do update slowly because I am still going to school like some of you so please do understand that would be great. One more thing NO hate and NO plagiarism neither of which is okay but I do like friendly criticism. If you think that is a green like go to be mean it's not! Enjoy reading! ~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~

TRIGGER WARING FOR THOSE WHO HAVE TROUBLE WITH RAPE PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS CHAPTER AS IT IS NOT FOR YOU! I just wanted to give warning for those before reading of what is to come and no worries you will not miss any of the story because of it.

Allie pov-

"Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Enemy fire
Who's a friend
who's an enemy
Sometimes they look the same to me
But looks can be pleasing
Yet so deceiving
Sweet words from a serpent's tongue
Its like playing with a loaded gun
Who knows what truth is
How do you prove it
I swear I see you watching me, well
Oh, oh, oh
Come a little closer
Oh, oh, oh
You can be my soldier
Oh, oh, oh
Keeping me safe from all who conspire
enemy fire
Oh, oh, oh
I'm looking for some shelter
Oh, oh, oh
From the helter skelter
Oh, oh, oh
Just keep me away from all who conspire
Enemy fire
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Enemy fire"

"Allie would you keep that shit down before I come up there myself ."

Closing my Chemistry book I reached for the remote to my stereo sitting by my bed stand, letting out a sigh I turned it off. Ever since I was younger music seems to be the only thing that keeps me focused on something other than my life.

Hearing my mother's voice is never what I wish for it to be, I always can hear the disgust seeping through her tone whenever she speaks to me. The disgust she holds for me but not her son the one that still lives in this damn house. He is no brother of mine and this is no home of mine! Sometimes I wonder what home could mean to me, Hopefully one day but not today.

Putting all of my supplies away in my bag I start getting ready for bed. 

Laying in bed on my back I traced my thumb over my moon pendant connected to my necklace, remembering when my father bought it for be before he died. He was kind and good hearted but sadly died when I was 15. Sometimes I wonder if he is proud of me. Before he died I promised him that I wouldn't change for anyone. My father is never far from my heart and I will never forget him. I'll admit I envy those who will have their father be there when they graduate or to walk them down the isle.

A part of me is glad my father didn't know what had happened to me before he died but another part of me wishes I had told him. I just never wanted his last thought was that he failed as a father when he didn't. All I wanted to do was to protect him before he left for good. I needed his last thought to be happy. 

The thunder outside brought me out of my trance but if I could only have 5 more minutes to think of him. Turning over on my side I tucked my arm under my pillow as I felt sleep succumb me.

Darkness surrounds all of me. Fear rushing up my spine feeling as if I were drowning feeling my air running out and my throat burning for even a second of air. For what feels like hours is only seconds when the burning ceases. I felt cold and his hands on my skin moving under my shirt gripping my young breasts. My cheeks were wet with tears and my mouth dry from pleading with my wrists bruised from force. They always say if you fight you have a better chance but that is far from the truth, you have about the same chance. His mouth against my skin and his erection pressed against my thigh. I felt every part of me screaming but it was as though I knew I lost the fight and I was petrified. The moment his assault had stopped I gained hope only for it to be demolished when he had forcefully entered my rectum.

I suddenly jolted awake with sweat dripping down my forehead and some between my breasts. I peered down at my arms to see so blood but not much. I tend to dig my nails in my skin whenever I have nightmares. Sadly that night wasn't the last for another 3 years and I was never the same completely afterwards. I let out a faint sigh knowing that I would no longer be getting anymore sleep tonight no matter how late it was.

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