Forbidden from the start

chapter 32

Jacob is quiet . No words exchanged and he hasn't answered any of my questions. I feel like we're in a movie right now . This can't be happening.

The stress . The agony . This dark place .

His intimidating stance makes it hard for me to even Breath correctly. I'm breathing very shallow, afraid that if I make too much noise it will upset him more .

We are in a dark road in the middle of nowhere as we pass a lot of closed stores . This area is abandoned, it can't be just closed for the day it's not even 12 am yet .

He pulls up in a gas station - a closed one - which has only a light outside that's making this whole scene more creepy . He doesn't stop in-front of the store , but he continues going behind it where I see a small what seems like parking lot .

The car stops and the engine dies , shutting the only light that kept this situation bearable .

Scary silence.

He rolls down his window and takes out his cigarettes again .

I hear the sounds of the trees swinging and the night birds chipping.

Is he really gonna smoke now ?

" I know I shouldn't be talking right now .." I start trying to brake this awkward silence

Again . Nothing.

Like I'm not even here .

" But why can't we just go home ? " I say looking at him wanting for this situation to came to an end

He takes a couple of seconds to answer and then he turns his head to me , his one elbow placed on the window holding his cigarette, then putting it to his mouth .

" Home .." he mumbles through his cigarette while taking my lighter from my pocket, throwing me a bit off guard but i ignore it for now , and bringing it to his mouth while lighting that thing up " You mean the dorms ? " he asks with a eyebrow raised looking at me this time

" Yeah " I say nodding

" Are you fucking stupid? " he says in a harsh tone

I widen my eyes at his choice of words and I immediately feel my heart sting .

" Do you not get it ? There're going to look for us there ! " he continues as he darts his eyes from mine ahead scoffing at my dumb remark

" Over a fight? " I mumble to myself more feeling ashamed

" Of course over a fight ! " he says throwing his head back sounding more tired than he seems

" I'm - Im sorry " I manage to say while touching aggressively the hem of my yellow dress

" Sorry isn't gonna cut it " he says in a low voice while taking another drag

Why is he so cruel to me ?

" What else do you want me to do ? " I say more frustrated

" You don't get it ! " he snaps at me making me jump " what didn't you understand when I told you to keep it low ?" I can feel his pointed look on me as I keep my eyes on my dress

Suddenly the air in that car is making me suffocate and I feel my head dizzy.

" Stop yelling at me ! " I snap back at him touching my head for balance and taking a sharp breath because of the feeling

" That's why I say your too fucking young , you don't understand the danger Olivia ! " he continues shouting " We were on his side and you chose to make fun of him ?"

I didn't know they were any fucking sides .

" I'm sorry " I say again feeling my heart rate going on the ceiling

" I told you a sorry isn't gonna cut it !" He snaps at me again

I feel my lungs closing up and I immediately blindly grab the handle of the door to open it up for more air and when I try to open it up , it doesn't.

It's locked .

" What are you doing " his voice sounding like he is meters away from me

" The - the door " I say trying to catch my breath " Open it " i brink my head up eyeing the door

" Open it !" I yell

With clack I hear the door unlock and instantly get out of the car .

The air isn't as much as I need despite the fact that I'm outside. The dizziness is still there and I reach the frond of the car to balance my self with both of my hands .

I throw my head upwards and shut my eyes of this inconvenience as I bring one hand on my chest to massage it .

It feels like my air is running out , my heart and stomach work together In order to end me .

Suddenly I feel a hand on my waist and bring my head down again gasping at the sudden contact.

" What's happening " his deep and demanding voice asks

I feel my eyes roll back as his one hand finds the back of my neck and the other grabs tightly my waist , keeping me on my feet .

" Look at me " he says as I feel his breathing hit my face and watch him from down there with my slightly open eyelids

My head feels like it weights fifty pounds.

" Look at me " he repeats shaking my head a little that making me open my eyes more

" Breath with me Olivia " he says opening his mouth and doing some movements with it

I watch as his lips move and do the same , each time taking a breath and exhaling through my nose.

" That's right " he nods his head praising me

" I'm sorry " I speak low

He shakes his head while I feel his hand move behind my head , stroking it .

My heard warms up by that gesture and I catch myself looking into glistening his eyes more than I should .

" Don't think about that it's over " he says " it's in the past " he says nodding at me

" It's - it's in the past " I nod back at him gaining back my strength to stand at my own

I feel my heart rate going normal , and my vision not blurred anymore.

He stands there looking down on me as his eyes are scrunched up , examining my whole face .

We are so close again and I feel my body melt into his hold . Our lips inches apart as I smell the scent of his cigarette.

When his eyes fall on my lips . He stays there for a solid second and then I feel his hold leave my body taking away the heat that's been giving me .

" Im gonna take you to your dorm " he says coldly as he turns his back on me going to the drivers seat

I take a sharp breath to collect my thoughts , going straight at the passenger seat because all I need right now is to lay down to my bed and sleep after all what happened.

Even when the place I'm going to rest , may not give me peace for the night .