Once

Chapter 11

I've craved the taste of his lips since he first kissed me. His soft, warm lips are the perfect contrast to his cold, hard lip ring. I lose myself in him, forgetting how angry I am with him, forgetting that this is wrong. So wrong.

I can't think clearly. All I know is that I want this. I want him.

He moans into my lips before he pulls away. I look up at him with wide eyes, silently pleading for him to stay this time.

"I said your name, ya know, with those girls" He confesses to me. I nearly choke on my own breath.

"What?" I manage to say.

"When I was fucking them. All I could think about was you. I said your name countless times."

I can't form words right now, so I just stare at him. "Does this mean you have feelings for me?" I accidentally speak my thoughts.

"I don't know what this means" he sits down in the front porch steps and rubs his temples. "All I know is that you are consuming every single one of my thoughts. It's making me crazy, actually."

I perk up a little at his response. He thinks about me just like I do him. Maybe this shitty night really can be turned around.

"Why do you do this?" I ask him, I'm still angry with him.

"Do what?" he cluelessly asks.

"Vent to me, make me think that you actually care about me, and then completely ignore me around other people. You told me that I was the one that made you believe you could love someone again, and then go turn your back on me and sleep with all those girls. It's not fair Luke." I huff. He stays silent and looks at me. I step towards him so our faces are just centimeters away. "What do you want Luke?"

It seems like an eternity has passed before he finally answers.

"You" he simply states.

"Then act like it" I snap and begin to all away. Luke gently grabs my arm, turning me away.

"I'm sorry, okay? I haven't had to deal with these feelings in a long time. Time. that's what I need, time. Kylie, just give me time to figure myself out, please." he asks.

"Well how much time? Because if you think I'm going to wait months for you to come around, you're crazy. I've got a life to live and I swore I would never let a man in my way" I say with crossed arms.

Luke looks thoughtful before he answers. "A week. Give me a week to get my shit together and if we both still have feelings for each other, I'm going to do my best at being in a relationship again. Okay?"

This is crazy, everything is moving way too fast. Am I ready to have someone touch me again? After what he did to me? I guess I'll never know unless I try.

"Okay" I agree.

I have to tell Luke about him soon. Very soon.

{Hi guys!! 1k reads!! Holy shit ahh thank you I love you guys. I know my chapters are short and I take forever to update but I'll try to better with that after my lacrosse season ends. I know this story moves kind of fast but I've got big, dramatic plans for the future, just wait. don't for get to #PrayForMamaSwift please. I love her and her family and she deserves all the love and prayers in the world. Thank you💜-Erin}