Falling Apart ( After fan fiction)

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Is that what you called me upon?
you knew Ryle, this is what I wanted to do. I waited patiently the entire fall for college decisions to come up. I waited to see the status update. I have been waiting day and night for this. The good news arrived just before Christmas. I am happier about that. I love New York and I got into New York University and that's it. I am fixed that I don't wanna sacrifice my career being here.

I am telling for your good Tess. You haven't seen New York - you don't know about the people there.
Just to simplify in a sentence, "You know nothing about New York to show this much love and affection".

Well, you aren't. If you can tell me about my good, you should have said me encouraging kind words. After last night, you barely spoke to me. I felt happy, I felt like celebrating at Mac's diner with our favorite Cheeseburger and peri-peri fries with extra ketchup and mayonnaise. I am going to miss you the most. It will be hard but we can do the long-distance, we trust each other, don't you?

It's not about love Tess.

Sorry, I don't understand.

You have never been out of Colorado. You have not seen this world and haven't mixed up with varied people. So how can you be this naive to commit to college? You should wait and see the others you applied to.

Sorry, you can't attack me like this. I know the entire life, my world revolved around you and my mom, and damn this city. I love it and I gonna miss it. I just want to know why are you stepping in front of me as a barrier. I will meet new people. With the new experiences, I gather from being alone - independent, I will be more mature to make decisions.

What about me and the love? Do you know how hard it's - the long-distance things?

I understand your concern but you know well I am not changing my mind.

No one knows when they change Tess. I meant you might change after going there, who knows the future?

But we'll figure it out and can assure you that I won't change but maybe get a bit mature. What do you think?

I am not kidding.

Neither do I baby. I love you, I know this is hard but we gonna do this, and trust me things will be alright. It's about "US" and even after so many fights and breaking up scenes we gathered together ourselves and things went normal - us hanging at the diner with confession of the guilty. We love each other right, so we gonna solve it.

Ryle hugged me and held me for a few mins.

"I am going to miss you," he whispered in my ears.
"me too". He slowly took his hand away from my spine and touched my neck. He started taking his hand slower and slower. Holy crap, it was my chest. I was afraid if mom watched us making out but surely, falling under the fav child category of mom, Ryle would get the less scolding. I don't know if I was liking this intimacy and thought about how much I am going to be deprived of it. His touch, I guess.
But all I said was  " Stop" as soon as he was going to take his hand below my chest.
"What's wrong?" Ryle stopped and asked.
No, I think I have a concussion and should take some rest for now.
Can we continue it tomorrow? I would love that.

Tomorrow is good, goodnight Tess.

Night Ryle.

He kissed me on my lips and went.

The door slams.

I walked up to my bedroom, starring how much I am going to miss it and how well it will keep all my secrets in it.
Well, it's time for me to write my diary. I have so many thoughts fighting inside my head which need to be poured or else I won't be able to focus.