Truth - Lashton

Chapter 7

Luke's POV

I woke up really dizzy and hazy. It was Monday which meant school was back.

I slowly stood up, showered, brushed my teeth and got dressed.

I had dropped a bit of weight and I was really excited about it. I thought it was noticable.

I made the wise decision to walk to school as it may help me out a bit.

I walked into the building and there were a few students here. We were known as the ones who always showed up early on Mondays. My mum and dad always worked early on Monday and my brothers had gone off to do whatever so I was usually early.

I walked into the somewhat lonely classroom that held 3 students and Mr. Irwin chatting among them.

He gave me a warm smile as I walked in.

"Hello, Luke! Good morning! Would you like a snack before breakfast?"

I shook my head, dreading the idea of messing up my meal times. I went to my desk and pulled out my journal. I was scribbling some more art as it helped my thoughts that always seemed to be racing whether it was about food or my body.

Only this time, drawing didn't help. My thoughts grew louder and instead of them encouraging me, it was the opposite.

"I'm getting so bad.. this has been happening for 2 years.."
"I want to stop. This is hell."
"There's gotta be more beyond this."

I kept scribbling more aggressively. I didn't need help, I was just healthy. I was healthy and that was all.

"Luke, are you alright? You're crying.."

I hadn't noticed the tears running down my face until Mr. Irwin brought it up. I wiped my face, nodded and let out a small laugh.

"Yeah, just thinking that's all."

I gave him a weak smile and went back to drawing.

2 years ago, it seemed like yesterday. I was teased constantly for my weight as I was fat when I was 13. I wish I had done something about it sooner instead of now.

As more students walked in, I put my sketchbook away and pulled out all my supplies for the lesson today.

Breakfast arrived after a few minutes. The smell made me wanna gag and possibly remove the ability to smell food ever again. As the students went up to grab their food, Mr. Irwin called me over.

This seems like a habit now, he offers me healthy breakfast options which I appreciate alot. He passed me the protein bar and breakfast bar that I gratefully took.

I took a bite of the breakfast bar, instead of being delighted by the strawberry taste. I felt replused and sick but I still felt something in me to keep eating.

It seemed like a matter of seconds before both bars were gone. How could I have eaten that fast?! I shouldn't have done that! I'm gonna get bloated and sick. I need to be slower when I eat.

I saw Mr. Irwin's eyes on me, filled with worry.

He has no reason in the world to be worried. I'm completely healthy and doing well.