Appetite of a People-Pleaser // Ranboo x Gender Neutral Reader

Friend

Tubbo POV:

As they left I felt my body loosen up and grow less tense. That conversation felt very uncomfortable at the last part. They seemed so happy to hear those words but why? I would've cried if I had heard those words. There's something about them that just seems off. I wish they could've stayed longer even though I know it would've just grown more tense.

I look towards Mark and furrow my eyebrows confused on what Y/N means to him. Why would he lie about them? Did some dispute happen between the two? Or is there something else?

Whenever I first saw Y/N, they looked hurt. Looked as if their body was about to be crushed and severed. Their eyes were so dull and they looked as if someone had just torn them apart, and been shot in the heart. They looked as if they wanted to cry even though they couldn't. Did they get into a fight before we came? If so then did Mark lie to us?

I noticed Mark getting up from bed so I quickly looked away acting as if nothing happened. He sat up in his bed rubbing his eyes, still groggy. "Hey Tubbo Is Tommy still asleep?" He asked with a deep morning voice. "Yeah he is." I said falling on my back onto the bed. "What have you been doing for like the past hour then?" He asked me, looking down at me smiling. "Just been sitting here for a while messing around with a few things here and there." I said avoiding eye contact, not wanting to mention my conversation with Y/N. His eyes softened a bit and his smile faded.

"Are you lying to me?" He asked, visibly upset. "Yeah, I am." I answered, looking at him dully knowing I couldn't say no. "Well then what did you do?" He asked me once more, raising an eyebrow. "I talked with Y/N for a bit." "Y-you did?" He replied quickly, his voice wavering and his sleepy expression turning into a surprised one. "They're really interesting." "You could say that I guess.." He said, turning his head to the wall. "I know you're upset that I lied to you but why did you lie to me and Tommy?" I asked him, tilting my head a bit looking up at him. "L-lie to you?" He said knowing he was caught red handed. "About Y/N," "You said she was Lily's friend right?" He nodded a bead of sweat rolling down his face. "But they're actually your friend!" "Aren't they?" He sighed and nodded again looking away in shame. "Well why did you lie?" I asked him, grinning deviously. "Because I don't even know them!" "Sure they'll hang around me and do nice things but I don't wanna be friends with somebody who has no personality!" "Like I said, they can't think for themselves.." He said, quietly and quickly muttering. "I think you should give Y/N a second chance." I said, sitting myself up on the bed. "They scared me when we were talking." "They asked me what you thought of them." I saw Mark's expression drop at the thought of them knowing what he truly thought of them. "And all they did was thank me and smile." "I don't think they're okay." "I mean who would think a person is stable if someone reacted like that?" "They acted as if they were used to it.." "Y'know being told negative things about them." "They just laughed it off and smiled." "It seems they have a hard time coping with things." I said slightly muttering the last bit but making sure it was loud enough for Mark to hear. His face looked red and his eyes grew puffy with his head hanging low. "T-thank you for telling me that." He stuttered, his voice still wavering.

I watched him leave the room to find Y/N to properly apologize to them. They deserve it.

Y/N POV:

I went through my handbook trying to remember how to reset myself so I would be able to change. I still hadn't found anything after 20 minutes. I don't know if I'm glad or unhappy that I didn't find anything there.

I let Tubbo's words flood my brain as I fell backwards onto the bathroom floor pushing myself up against the wall just sitting there. I let my sobbing noises come out again as I pulled my legs up to my chest and just sat there. I don't know what I'm doing wrong, please just help me get out of this hell! What did I do to deserve this? Why am I even here right now? I should be in the comforting arms of my... Of my... Of my what? What's that word again? The comforting arms of... Something important? Why am I saying this? I don't even know what I'm talking about! Wait... What am I even saying right now! I don't deserve anything! I've been out of line, out of order, I've even been selfish enough to try and act on my own! No wonder this is happening to me! I do deserve this! I've done so many wrongs, just let me erase them!