It Wasn't Meant To Be, A TwilightxBTS Crack!Fic

Dr. Min

I recounted the events of the past week to Dr. Min. Never in my life have I felt more ashamed to admit that I had been hallucinating my ex-boyfriend which led me to do the most reckless, stupid things.

At the end of it all, Dr. Min took off his glasses and closed his book.

"Finally."

"What?"

He gave me a soft smile. "Bella, I asked you about your nightmares and you told me that it was always about that one night and now it seems like you're ready to explain. Would you care to explain?"

I pursed my lips. I never liked to think about my nightmares. They happen so often that they were a substantial part of my life.

"Your father when I spoke to him," Dr. Min began. "Said that every time you woke up screaming, he was afraid you would go back to – what did he say? A zombie."

"That night I went missing in the woods," I started. "I wasn't supposed to go missing. Edward broke up with me outside of the house. I just tried to run after him."

"But you don't only dream of the woods, do you?" Dr. Min asked. "Last year, you broke up with Edward, left town, and then suddenly you broke your leg and went through a window. Do you know what that sounds like?"

I shook my head.

"What was your relationship like?" he asked. "If I may ask. We don't have to get into it."

"He...he was my first boyfriend," I started slowly. "I felt safe. Like I could be a child. I never got to be a child. I always took care of Renee and I feel like I need to take care of Charlie, so Edward took care of me."

"You depended a lot on him."

I nodded. "We started dating when I came to Forks. So when he left, I... didn't know what to do."

"And was Edward ever rude to you in any way?"

I stayed silent. Yes? No? It was Edward. He showed hatred for humanity sometimes, but he was kind to me until I proved I was a human.

"He was wonderful to me," I muttered.

"And did he ever keep you away from your friends?"

"Hard to say when he was around all the time."

I didn't want to go further. I couldn't go further without talking about the vampire aspect. Perhaps I could humanize sneaking into my room at night somehow.

"I do not encourage this bike riding behavior," Dr. Min changed the subject. I was grateful for that. "I can't stop you, though. That's something you must realize for yourself unless it's really hurting you which, "he nodded towards the stitches on my head. "Came very close."

I didn't know what he saw that I didn't. I thought it was, either way, obvious that the catalyst for my zombie state was Edward, but he was seeing a lot more.

"What do you really like, Bella?" he asked. "What do you want to be?"

"I... don't know."

What did I want to do? I had signed up for the English majors but was that what I really liked or did I make that decision because I knew nothing else.

I was exhausted after the therapy session, and it was made even worse when Jacob didn't answer the phone. I tried again in the next few days but to no avail. He had mono, Billy would say. He's not healthy enough, please stop calling.

I gave up on Jake. He'll call when he calls.

I admitted that I felt rejected. Maybe it was because we spent too much time with each other, and his sudden absence hurt me. We hadn't necessarily ended on a good note with him threatening to put Mike in the hospital. But I couldn't dwell on it for too long. I shouldn't. It would hurt me in the end.