My life

The start

Okay so I don't really know how to really start this book of my life but first I'm going to tell you a little about myself.
Okay so I'm in middle school and I barley have friends. No one likes to talk to me, at all, except for two people. J & F.(I really don't want to use names)
J and F are addicted to this game called Five Nights At Freddy's. Which I absolutely think is stupid. They won't stop talking about it. That all they really talk about. So there is one more person at school that is involved in my life. His name is C. And I really do like home but we got in this huge situation and I to,d him that I was done with hike and that I never wanted to meet him in the first place. So I blocked his instagram and his number. So now I'm all depressed about loosing him in my life.
Everyday at lunch J and F play fnaf(Five Nights At Freddy's). They annoying game I told you about. So I end up on my iPad during lunch doing something on my own. And my friends barely do anything at lunch except play fnaf. They are in there own world. Anyways sometimes I ask people if I can sit with them and they say sure, so I sit down and they don't even talk. So I end up leaving. I really hate school because I have no friends that like me. So pretty much I'm the girl who everybody dislikes. And plus I have to deal with my siblings at home. My two older brothers, the other bad half of my life. They cause me to have anger issues. Because they push me around everyday and once I tell them to stop they continue to do what there doing. And sometimes when they get on my nerves, I start to scream an yell. For example what happened earlier tonight. My brother wouldn't stop leaving me alone so I got so freaking pissed off at him and pushed him, the. He pushed me on the ground, with me hold ing my phone so my phone shattered, he literally makes my life worse. Sometimes I just wanna COMIT suicide but then I think of God and deny my thoughts. So I can't really do anything about anything. I can't fix my life. They only friend that cares about me is C(a girl). She was my neighbor for 9 years until she moved to the Dominican Republic. Then after a while I went to ho visit her during Christmas vacation. I left on her birthday. So my point is to you guys is that I am this lonely girl that nobody likes only has three friends and has brothers this piss her off every 5 seconds. If you are reading this it's okay if you laugh at me, I'm already used to it.