'Di ako nakapag update for two days. Ikaw ba naman magkaroon ng boring na araw, ewan ko na lang kung may masulat ka pa.
Anyway, ngayon kasi, nakita ko 'yung notebook ko na may lamang mga tula na sinulat ko since 2017.
Nakakatuwa lang balikan 'yung level ng bitterness na meron ako dati. Ewan ko ba, puro lovelife at heart broken era 'yung mga sinusulat ko. Daig ko pa nagkajowa at iniwan ng jowa.
Then narealize ko lang bigla, ang tagal ko na palang 'di nagsusulat.
Reason?
Wala lang.
Feeling ko kase ang babaw ko masyadong gumawa. I'm not even reading books to improve my writings. Lagi kong rason, wala akong time.
Then ayun, simula nun ayoko na muna ulit magsulat.
People says it is my talent
pero di ko makita yung uniqueness sa gawa ko.
Everyone can write something like that.
Maybe its just a hobby na malapit na ring kumupas.
Then this year, tinry ko 'tong wattpad.
Dati nag log in ako dito as a reader, for fun.
Ngayon, nag log in ako as a writer.
let's just say... I'm trying to find my way back on writing.
Somehow, my ideas hunts me at night.
Sooooobrang daming ideas,
halos 'di ko na alam san ko iaapply 'yung mga ideas ko.
Again, I still don't see the uniqueness in my ideas.
Masyadong common.
Usual ba.
But so far, what I have learned since I stopped writing is that,
Sino ba naman ako para di ako maniwala sa kaya ko pang gawin?
It might be too late for me to realize this but I guess it was never too late to try again.
If 'di ako para dito, then at least tinry ko ulit.
Soon, hahanap pa 'ko ng way to express my ideas.
After all, in my case, what makes it unique is not the words or topic.
It is the progress itself.
YOU ARE READING
IN MY MIND...
RandomThis is just all about me. Not the typical story that you are looking for. But if you are curious, this is an open diary. Feel free to read :)
