Just another school love story

Surprise, another shitty day at school. My mom makes me take the school bus because she thinks it will help me make more friends and help me step outside my comfort zone. Well, I developed something that was more than just friendship. This book is about how I fell in love for the first time. It was not exactly the life I wanted, but it was the life I got. I do not know how to explain what he and I are. But one thing I know is that what we have is special but complicated. But fuck it, it is what it is, isn't it? Let me just introduce the main characters in this book. I am Xo. And my partner's name is Ri.

Anyway, back to the story. The school I go to is uhm how do I phrase it nicely? Umm....MYSOGYNISTIC. Yup, that's right misogynistic all in caps. On yet another fine shitty day, my friend made me go to the boys' section with her because she wanted to talk to her sister's teacher. Guess who I saw outside the teachers' room? Yeah, you guessed it. I saw him. Turns out he got in trouble and I swear I saw him tell his friends he knew me, which not going to lie, lowkey got me smiling and shit. That one small gesture filled my head with clouds. I had to leave soon though but I looked at him one last time before I left. I was going to see him on the bus later that day anyways but you know got to do it for the dramatic effects. After school ended, I got on the bus and the first thing I saw was him. God, his hazel eyes were dreamy. Every feature of his was dreamy. He, himself was dreamy. I felt an attraction toward him. But he was not the type I usually go for. The complete opposite if I am being honest. He was annoying and lowkey ugly but you know what the say about lowkey ugly boys, yeah? (wink wonk). But for some reason he was who I wanted. He pretended like he did not just see me a few minutes ago like wtf I saw you whisper to your friends about how you knew me... kind of hurt but eh, I would have honestly done the same. We were not exactly friends when this happened.

A few days went by, and holy shit, his sister and her friend told me about how Ri had a crush on me! Oh my God, I was panicking on the inside so much, but I had to play it cool because he was watching. When I confronted him, the boy denied it. I have to admit, it was pretty disappointing but not surprising. A while later, me being the impatient person I am, made a move on him. Asked a girl he talks to, to ask him for his socials, brave huh? The girl was a kid by the way, I know I know but I got to put me first alright. I was so embarrassed when he asked me why I needed it, I told him "I don't know" (girl wat???) then he said, "I don't have an Instagram, but I use discord." Boy, I do not want to go through another discord phase, no thank you. I thought he was lying because maybe I was being creepy asking for his socials? Whatever. Then he and I pretended like the whole thing never happened. Me being the smartass I am forced myself to move on by doing what? That is right folks, I got back with my ex! Woohoo worst decision ever. It obviously did not end well and I ended up breaking up with a pathetic excuse of a person, my ex. The next day, I had school, and I could not even skip, thankfully I survived the whole day. On the bus, I was on my phone finding shit to do because I ran out of data. All of a sudden, he comes up to me and tells me about how he made an Instagram account. Fuck yeah, finally. But he was a little too late because we were literally just 2 seconds away from his stop. I decided to ask him for his Instagram the next day, but fate was against it, and I got sick. Extremely sick. Way to go world. It was the last day of school before winter break, which meant I had to wait a long time to get his Instagram. I tried my best to find it. But my stalking skills decided to fail me when I needed it the most. I tried not to think about him during the entirety of the break which just made me think of him even more. It was dreadful but it went. by. When school reopened, I was a different person. No, because people literally started asking me who I was. Probably because I got a haircut. When I got on the bus everyone started asking me who I was and out of everyone, he did too. Not surprised.

A few weeks later his sister asked me for my Instagram and well I gave it to her. And oh my God, I got his Instagram too! Finally! And then I got home and called my best friend to tell her what just happened, and she told me to text him and I, most obviously did. We talked for a long time that day and then he had to go. We started talking every day. We talked a LOT. I started flirting and dropping obvious hints with him gradually. But him being the oblivious dork he is missed every single one of my advances. On one of the days, we were talking I accidentally confessed about how I liked him to him. I started panicking because I was sure he did not like me back, that was until he said, "I like u too wot the fuck?." We then started dating and well, if I am being honest, it was the best day of my life. I remember the exact date and time; it was 30th Jan 2022 at 08:04 pm. The next day was Monday, which meant I would see him. It was pretty awkward if I am being honest. But I was so happy that I did not care.

It went well until February 14. The day it all went to drain. I wanted to spend time with him, but I could not because he did not come to school. We decided to make 15th February our valentine's day. He and I sat together so we could do the cheesy couple-y shit but the bus assistant had other plans. She came to us and asked us why we were sitting together. He and I did not answer and just went back to our actual seats. And guess what? She changed his seat. Now he sits far away from me. I mean I get being a bus assistant is hard and you are probably having a hard day but guess what? You *clap* are *clap* not *clap* special. He and I still tried making it work by passing each other notes but she caught that too and changed our seats again. I hated her for that. She could have pretended like she did not see it and let me have my chance at a romcom-ish school love life for once. But no, of course not. Later we just decided to talk before the bus moved since it is better than nothing. And we, fortunately, made that work.

A few months later, we started facing issues and saw each other's real personalities. We kind of made it work, though. He had the little boyish annoying immaturity but I put up with it. I could not even break up with him since I loved him more than I would like to admit.

"It's true love" they say, Is it though? Every couple has a secret. Ours just so happens to be that we knew we were better off without each other. But something held us together. The want, the love. Maybe happy endings are real. And we might get to experience it too.