My boyfriend and I have been in a relationships for 4years. It wasn't a secret relationship. In fact, open kami both side and were live in for almost 3years. Everyone around us was looking forward for our wedding and future babies. Especially our families, who had so much expectation that we would end up together.
Some people would say, we are match made in heaven, even we are opposite personality, he had a strong personality while me I have soft hearted personality.
We both meet at work, our first job. Di ko siya masyadong pansin noon, hanggang sa inadd niya ako sa facebook, naging magkaibigan at lumalim ang usapan. I don't remember how we start, how we end up living together.
When we together, I became his shelter, his safe haven and his number one supporter of his dream, and I was there during his feats and downfalls. I support him all the times, kahit na minsan hindi ko gusto mga bagay na ginagawa o binibili nya, pinipilit kong ginugusto para sakanya. I remember how I stayed during moments when he felt down, hopeless, and frustrated.
I stayed just to make sure that he has someone to lean on and someone he could consider his home.
Before, everyday he told me that I was his inspiration and he kept on muttering things his plans and goals for our future. For 4years of being together we never had any big fight in that long of span, kung pasensya lang pag-uusapan, he could've receive an award for having such a long patience and wide understanding, kahit na yung personality niya ay napakastrong.
He'd never allow me to sleep with a heavy heart. He'd always find ways just to resolve our issues and stop our fuss. He'd even set aside his ego and pride when needed. Mas gusto niyang okay kami kays sa tama siya, kahit madalas ako ang pinagmumulan ng away ipapaintindi niya sa akin ang mga bagay-bagay. I admit sometimes I'm too immature pero he never get tired for my immaturity.
Our relationship went well naman not until I became overly bothered by our co-worker.
We have new co-workers, I was too friendly to her, we're friends actually, dahil we have common friend kaya kilala ko siya and I'm the reason bakit na tanggap sya sa work. I told to my boss that I know her that's why she hired with her boyfriend. Sobrang inaadmire ko yung girl dahil napakastrong ng personality niya, and she's good in everything, I always talk her about things, lahat ata ng katangian niya na ideal girl ng boyfriend ko na kabaliktaran ko.
Until one day, naging aloof sakin si Gigi. I don't know sa tuwing kakausapin ko siya iwas siya sakin. Hanggang sa hindi ko na sya kinakausap. I told my best friend Vea and she ask me if i done something wrong to her, as far as I know I did nothing wrong to her.
She suddenly stopped talking to me, and there a times she was rude to me.
When she was avoiding me, at the same time my boyfriend was change. My boyfriend did change a lot, tuwing nagkakatampohan kami, kaya niya na akong tiisin matulog na mabigat ang pakiramdam, kaya na akong iwanang mag-isa, hindi na rin niya maiwan yung cellphone niya, kahit saan sya pumunta dala dala niya, madali din uminit ang ulo nya, kaya niya na akong pabayaan nalang.
At that time, I thought there was something between the two of them, but that's impossible, Gigi has a boyfriend, and I'm her friend. Inisip ko nalang na baka nalulungkot ang boyfriend ko dahil nasa ibang bansa lahat ang pamilya nya. Sya nalang naiwan dito sa pinas and I did my best that time para di nya mafeel na nag iisa sya.
Until one day, we just heard that Gigi and her boyfriend was separated. At noong panahon na yun yung kutob ko lumalakas. Something fishy talaga, may mga bagay at kilos na rin ang boyfriend ko na nakakaoverthink. Pero pilit kong iniisip at sinasaksak sa isip ko na coincidence lang lahat. Mahal ako ni Pablo.
Two months later, all of a sudden my boyfriend spoke to me. he suddenly said that he was tired, I asked him where he was tired, at work or with me? He answered me with a teary eyes, his tired in everything, he lost, he need to find and fix his self. that moment, i think alam kona saan patutunguhan yung usapan namin. I asked him again "what do you want me to do? What can i help?" He said "I don't know" kinulit ko siya " May problema ba tayo? Ano? Sabihin mo para maayos na natin agad." Natapos usapan namin na ganoon lang, gulong-gulo ako at daming tanong. Saan sya napapagod?
