I'm so sorry Caspar.

I'm so sorry Caspar. (English version)

This evening, the road was slippery and the rate raised alcohol in Joe's blood influenced on his quality of driving. He was going far too fast, the music was far too loud, the excitement flowed into his veins as the most mortal some poisons. Caspar, hung to his seat, saw his life flashing before his eyes. He had tried to prevent Joe from taking his car, he really had tried but Joe was more than persuasive and Caspar trusted him. Then he had let him make, not having the age to drive, and now he regretted bitterly.

"Joe, slows down.", begged Caspar but Joe didn't listen to him and went up the even louder sound to not hear any more his boyfriend.

"Joe, please!"

"Shut up!" Shouted Joe harshly. He loved Caspar but he knew what he was doing, he would never have endangered the life of his boyfriend. He told him to trust him, he had to trust him, that was how worked a couple.

"JOE" yelled the youngest when Joe braked sharply after having almost hit the car in front of him. Only the shrill sound of the radio and the jerky breath of Caspar echoed in the dark. Caspar quickly turned off the radio and turned to Joe. He tried to moved his hand on Joe's but he slapped her without looking at his boyfriend.

"It's your fault! If you stopped shouting as a chicken we would have already arrived home! It's your fault and only your fault. You are just a cry baby and you seriously take the lead to me! Then now, shut up and let me drive in peace." Caspar decomposed himself in front of his boyfriend's roarings. His fault? Yes, Joe was right, it was his fault. After all, he trusted him, he was just a frightened cry baby.

"I'm sorry Joe ..", tears run down his face while he stammered apology painfully. Joe promised that he would never be angry again against Caspar when he heard him crying. He slowly turned to him and when he was about to put his hand on Caspar's cheek, he was blinded by a white light. "Joe ..?", He heard the voice of his boyfriend and the suffocating sound of a horn.

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"Joe! Who is there?", Caspar screamed, holding Joe's hand when he saw a light come to them. They were here, under the car, among thousands of pieces of glasses that were spread around them.. Joe's father was going to kill them.

"Don't worry, I'm here, I will not abandon you," Joe reassured by linking his fingers with those of Caspar. The light was coming again and Caspar was screaming in pain.

"Joe, I'm afraid, your father will kill us," Caspar breathed heavily, trembling in every limb and clinging to Joe. He was terrified and the more the light approached them, the more he felt Joe detaching from him.

"We will not tell him."

"Joe, just do not leave me!" the light blinded Caspar and he felt Joe letting go of him.

"I WON'T"

"JOE!" Yelled Caspar, holding out his arms toward Joe.

Joe held out his arms to catch Caspar's, but he also was blinded by a horrible white light. He screamed the name of his boyfriend before sinking into total darkness.

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"Let him go Kyle, it's a lost cause, he will not wake up." The driver of the ambulance had already given up on saving the boy when he saw the flat line on the monitor screen, indicating he was dead for several minutes.

"Certainly not." Kyle wasn't of his opinion and he tried desperately to bring the teenager back to life with the defibrillator. He was certain that the boy clung and fought for his life. He was not going to let him go. "C'mon son, open your eyes." He stared at the monitor to perceive the slightest beating of heart. "Please Lord." He pressed the child's hand and, miraculously, the beating of his heart regained and he slowly opened eyes, taking a deep breath. The paramedic kissed the cross he wore around his neck and prevented the boy from moving. "Hey.."

"Wh-where was I? What .." softly mumbled the survivor.

"You were far my boy."

"Where is Caspar?.. Where is Caspar?.. ", Joe slowly called up before turning his head and seeing a body laid at his right, covered with a thin white sheet. "Caspar?" Only his arm, hung painfully towards the ground, his palm slightly open and his head were not covered. His eyes were closed peacefully.

"Caspar?! ", Joe's heart missed a beating. He pushed away the paramedic and tried to sit and to catch the hand of Caspar but Kyle held him firmly so that he don't move, trying to calm him down. " Wait, you don't understand, it's my boyfriend! Caspar! No, no, no, Caspar! ", Joe screamed all his strengths, sobbing, trying to struggle. " Oh my god, I'm so sorry Caspar.. ", Joe clung to Kyle, crying his eyes out, trying to struggle still. "It's my boyfriend! I can't leave him!.. No Caspar! " " I'm sorry Caspar..I am so sorry.. "

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This evening, the road was slippery, Joe was drunk. He had never wanted to put his boyfriend's life in danger. He loved him with all his heart, he had never wanted to hurt him.

This evening, two lovers had had an accident and one of them had died.

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Hey guys, it's my first Jaspar os and I'm french so I'm really sorry for my english.

I hope you enjoy, I spent a lot of time to write it.

Please, don't forget to comment and vote. It would be really adorable!

Also, this story is inspired by Charlie St Cloud. One of the films that shocked me the most emotionally. It is beautiful, if you have not seen it, I recommend it!

So yeah, byyyye - Alison