Existing at Once

Chapter 15 ~ Fuck Sobriety

The two finally finished dancing and ordered another round of both americanos and old fashions.

"So we got a bit emotional there didn't we?" Says Entia as she hiccups off the liquor she had been drinking before having met up with the woman.

"I blame the alcohol, but everything I am saying to you right now Entia is still true, believe me, I wouldn't have gotten this drunk if I knew I was going to be this emotionally and physically safe with you.

"Besides look at the bartender, he defintly wants to still have sex with us because of what we told him so he'll defintely let us stay until whatever time we want, but I think he's also minding his own business now that he's seen us teer up a bit."

Entia laughs," hahaha, you're right, we're just two grown ass women that are drunk but have- wow! We've been here already for two hours and he's supposed to have closed already. But still yea, I think he's chill with us staying in and well overall, I gotta be honest with you, I'm really enjoying being here with you, so thank you, thank you for just existing right now in this moment with me.

"Awweeee, look at you being all romantic and shit, but same here Entia,thank you, I almost don't want this night to end, I really just want us to get to know eachother even though we'll sober up next morning and be embarrassed about all the things we're about to share."

Entia grabs the woman by the shoulder, "don't worry, I know it's genuine so you can tell me anything you'd like, I'm just grateful for the fact that we just met and we're already hitting it off.

"Well, if that's the case, let's talk about Gisselle it all st-"

Entia abruptly interrupts the woman as she was about to begin story telling."Whoa whoa wait, are you sure you want to talk about her? Considering she..."

"Yes Entia, it'll be fine, and I'll remember even the fact that she was mentioned tonight."

Entia nods then in trust that she'll be fine after she's done talking about her.

"Well, we met when we were like what? Six? But we first started dating back when we were juniors in highschool, both of us having daddy issues, we kinda displayed that through the emotional dependency we had on each other, yet it also resolved that lack of affection we didn't receive from when we were younger.

"Being very close with each other as well brought our parents to suspect that we had something for each other which prevented us from really ever interacting when we were younger."

"Oh shit, so not only did you have a childhood friend, but also a lover? Must be nice... continue!" says Entia in envy since she never had a lasting consistent friendship but still persisting in eagerness to know what happened to Gisselle.

"Oh shush, you decided to cut off all those people, I never had people to begin with, I just had her."

Entia laughs as well, but then glares more intently at the woman so she may continue her story.

"But we dated for about 4 years, two in high school, and another two after it when we lived together in an apartment. Everything was fine, in fact she had come out to her parents about us since they were always against same gender relationships, she still didn't care and moved in with me to finally enjoy the relationship we had always wanted since kids."

"In fact, we too were planning marriage just like you and Lily."

Entia laughs in relief for thinking she wasn't crazy for wanting marriage at a young age.

"Hey what are you laughing at!?" The woman says as she gives a soft punch to the arm at Entia.

"No no, it's just nice knowing you're a romantic just like me." Entia chuckles.

"Oh okay good, well, moving on then." the woman says as she then sits up straight readying herself to tell the next part of her story with Gisselle.

"It was one day that we had both decided to go over to one of her family dinners and the parents were still being upset, but her father had been more accepting of our relationship with one another, hence the invite.

"But her mom is still upset about us, well..." the woman now begins to struggle to continue the story as she looks away to wipe her tears.

Entia then holds her by both shoulders directing her face towards hers, "hey, you don't have to continue, cmon lets just call it for tonight and go to your apartment."

"No!" The woman looks directly at Entia in determination to finish her story.

"I have to tell you this Entia, I know we have been having a goodnight up till now, and I'm honestly sorry that you have to sit through this but please stay I-"

"Don't be sorry, okay? I asked for this, I am only asking you to stop because I know this is hurting you, remembering right now while your drunk must be hard enough already."

The woman then calms down, " Thank you Entia, again please stay with me when we go to my apartment, but for real I really must like you already if I am sharing this much with you on our first night together.

Entia's being egotistical but also to lighten the mood a bit for the woman, "well what can I say, I truly am an amazing person."

The woman then laughs a bit with a lightened mood as she prepares herself again to continue, "As much as I hate a show off, you are kinda right about that Entia, I dunno, there's just something about you that really makes me feel as if I can tell you anything."

Entia then blushes a bit because she didn't think she'd agree with her complimenting herself.

"Aight well anyway! Let me finish telling you about Gisselle."

"Keep in mind though I am a bit drunk, but I'm still telling you this in conscious, mainly though also because the sadness is actually sobering me up..."

"Regardless! I am telling you this also so I can see if you truly are the amazing person you make yourself to be, but also for myself, so I can prove that yes that the moment I lost her still hurts, but so that I can keep moving forward to live a potentially happy and peaceful life with you."

Entia nods in comprehension and braces herself for what she's about to hear from the woman.