I lie in my bed. Scrolling on my phone. Completely and utterly confused. Why cant I look like those other girls? What did I do wrong?
I question myself.
They are so beautiful. They all have beautiful, luscious, healthy hair. Perfect straight, white teeth. Stunning cheek bones. Sharp jawline. Button nose. Plumped lips. Hourglass body's. Thigh gap.
I'm nothing like them.
My hair is always greasy. My teeth are not so straight. My cheek bones aren't big enough. You can barley even notice them. I have a button nose thankfully. My lips are not as big as theirs. I do have curves but you can barley see them with my stomach fat. My thighs are always touching.
It's not fair.
She's has you all mesmerized.
Am I too fat? Am I not pretty enough? Am I too skinny. Am I too pretty? Am I trying to hard?
Without noticing, suddenly, I'm crying. Maybe more than crying.
To be honest, who am I if not exploited.
I'm usually numb to this feeling. Mostly because I'm always comparing myself to people.
Why am I not like them.
I've never felt this much of this feeling.
Jealousy
