Poems of Life (Depression, Love, Etc.)

Waking the Demon

I wish I could awaken the demon,

I wish I could summon him to me

And form a contract with him,

But, alas, that shall only occur in dreams.

I can only be with him in dreams,

He is not real, he is from an anime,

He shall never exist,

But, still, I want someone to save me from - myself.

Why do I have these illusions?

I always love people I cannot have,

First it was her, and now it is him,

Why is this torment always for me?

I try my best to hide my sadness with a smile,

But I am slowly failing, if only my life were like Black Butler,

I could summon Sebastian and form a contract with him -

Hopefully my goal would be accomplished quickly

And I could die painfully as he took my soul.

Animes are not real, they only lurk in fantasies,

I can never see him, and, when he saw me,

He would die from my wretchedness, -

I mean nothing to everyone -

Especially him, if he existed,

But he doesn't, he only exists in the anime

And my dreams.

But what is my goal?

I-I would make it so no one was ever bullied again,

So no one was ever called an embarrassment

By their 'loving' parents -

I would make the world a place without pain

With the help of my demon, Sebastian,

But that would require him to stay by my side

For all eternity because, where there are humans,

There is always one who is willing to point and laugh,

There is always one who wants to make the other cry,

There is always one who wants to hurt the other,

And, even if I formed a contract with him, it would be

A waste of his time because I mean nothing to everyone,

Especially him, he is a demon, I am a human, -

Even if he were real, it would never work out,

And the world is doomed to forever live in darkness.