Journal of an Empress

I leave the door open

Chapter 21

It is so strange. I have felt this huge energy shifting these last days. I have felt my DM more near me than before. In 5D not 3D. I am just trying to go with the flow. It is a lot to handle. Memories. Hope. Faith. I haven't thought of him for a long time. Haven't felt his presence but now I do. It is always like this. When I think that I have finally got rid of the feelings, POFF, there they are. Just from out of nowhere. BOOM!

It is not a problem when they come for me anymore. I have accepted that I am in this journey. Sometimes it is hard to accept when I can't see anything in 3D but I know in my heart that what I feel is correct. It is the truth. Finally I know it is. Deep inside I know. He is my DM. Finally I have also realized that I am an Empress, inside and out. I know that I should not forgive him for all he has done me wrong. Most of my friends would say that I would be an idiot to talk to him. Sorry but I have ears and I want to use them. Everyone deserve to explain their actions if they come. That doesn't mean I will take him back. It just means that I think that everyone deserves to say what they got to say and maybe also say I am sorry, from heart. 

 I love his soul. I really do. I loved his smile when his soul was smiling. It was a special connection from start but he went away and got lost in this superficial life that he thought he wanted. I have always know that this life isn't his true self. I don't have to argument with him on this. He will learn. Some day. It is not my lesson to either learn or teach someone else.

Things are happening in my life fast now. There are so many positive situations that is coming my way and I am just accepting and going with the flow. Trying to not let fear and anxiety lead the way. No more. I will live a life with no expectations and just invite love, faith and happiness. I know that some pain will arrive, and I accept it. You can't have light without some shades. I know. I have learned so much and still are. So grateful and feel blessed. 

Maybe someone will come into my life and really show up as a person that is reliable and loving. Who is a genuine loving and kind person. We will see. I don't care whether it will or not. Maybe it is my DM maybe it is  a new one. No matter what, I know that he will come. I am so sure of it. So it is kind of exciting. 

WHO will enter my home and come through my door? Who will it be to will make me feel appreciated, valuable and feeling truly cherished? I will take nothing less that total devotion, deep conversations and honest communication from heart and most of all, living from heart and spirit. Otherwise I can wait until my next life. Maybe I will meet the one there.

It is so strange to have this deep connection that makes your heart beats like crazy. The energy right now is like they were when we met for several years ago. It is the same kind of energy, that something big is about to happen. That will turn all the tables around. That is the feeling. We will see. We will see.