Tori spring

Oliver spring

*big tw for this whole chapter, mentions of suicide and cutting*

"Hey oli, done your homework yet?"

I walk over to him and sit on the floor

"Hours ago. Soon as I got home. What about you?"

"Uhh.,.. I'll get to it"

"Come on Tori, mom says you have to work hard if you're gonna succeed"

I look at him and smile

"Yeah, well, the plans always been for me to sit back and watch you succeed, oli. Oh hey, who knows? Maybe one day, if you really work hard enough, you get to be the one to pay for my funeral"

We laugh

"How was school today?"

"Well, um... Richard Ryan punched Toby Gardner in the face and he got sent to mr. Coffees office"

"Oh yeah?"

"Yup. And I think I might be next so... I'm dividing a plan. Check it out" 

He hands me a paper

"Tori?"

"Yeah bud?"

"When are we gonna see Nick again, I miss him."

"Nick Nelson?"

"Yeah! He was my friend"

He says a little sad, I think Nick moved away after Charlie's passing, I wish I could move away this whole house is full of reminders that should've helped him, the doctors could've helped him but Charlie chose to do it by himself

He didn't die due to anorexia, that was part of it but... he was cutting himself a lot. Like he wore hoodies ALL the time but when he would take the hoodie off to go to bed. It was all up his arm all over his legs it was everywhere

Nick found him in the bathroom that night, I didn't even find him. I ate dinner and went to bed. I don't know when Nick arrived but next thing I know I'm being woken up by him sobbing and shaking me, blood all over his hands

"Nick?"

"He's gone Tori"

Me and Nick were kind of close, I don't know Nick very well but Charlie really really loved him, so I'm sure Nick is awesome.

"Umm I'm not sure where Nick is. I'm sure we'll see him again"

"Remember when I asked Charlie if he was going to marry Nick so Nick can be my brother?"

Oliver laughs, I miss those times so much, I miss Micheal, the Micheal Holden I knew at that time. He saved me. I was going through so much and he really helped, he was really a good person, that's why I thought he didn't deserve me and I kept pushing him away

When the school burnt down due to solitaire, this maniac named Lucas who was madly in love with me, he did everything for me. I was in the burning building, convinced Micheal had died, I stood at the top of the school as it burned

I was so ready to end it, it was calling to me, then Micheal was there, we had a conversation, we fight, we make up, we kiss, on the top of the burning school. I loved him. But when we got down off of that burning building

I pushed him away. All the way until now, now he's a drug dealer who doesn't wear shoes and runs around like a weirdo

I miss us though. I wish I didn't ruin everything

"Yeah, I remember that"

I laugh slightly

"I miss Charlie."