That's Not Me

Tears On Your Lips

Hailee's P.O.V

It had been several hours since I took y/n back to my apartment. She was sound asleep, staying as still as possible. There were moments when I caught myself drifting. At one point I decided to join y/ n and fell asleep with her. But when I had woken up y/n stayed asleep.

I didn't make any attempts to wake her up. She needed her rest, even if she past the 12 hr sleeping mark. A couple of times I wanted to wake her up so she could at least eat, then she could go back to sleep. But it was hard when I did get the courage to wake her up.

I tried a few of times but when I did y/n would mumble inaudibly. Or she would just roll over and fall back asleep. Couldn't blame her though. All I could do was lay next to her, holding her and making sure she was okay.

While my main focus was watching over y/n, I couldn't stop rereading the messages between my mom and I. Between my brother trying endlessly to get me to see their own selfish reason. I only laughed seeing just how far they were willing to go to get their way. And the fact they were willing to make y/n suffer.

My thumbs would dance around on the keys typing my responses in the messages. But before I could send them I would erase everything. Over and over hearing the tapping of my thumbs against the scream creating a soft song.

I let out a sigh, finally deciding to stop torturing myself and drop my phone back on the nightstand.

I heard a soft knock on the door. One thump, two thump, three thumps before the door opened slowly. Peaking her head in, Noelle made sure she wasn't ruining any moments before letting herself in.

"What are you doing here?" I say.

"I typed Bitch in my gps and guess what? I'm in your bedroom" Noelle smiled walking over towards us. She stood at the end of my bed, her arms crossed.

"Are you still mad?" I asked.

"Not mad, just disappointed" she gave a tight lip smiled.

"Noelle?"

"She's still asleep" she whispered softly changing the subject. I nodded my head, kissing the top of y/n's head before trying to remove myself from y/n's hold. It was a sad attempt, causing Noelle to chuckle a bit. So instead I sat up, y/n moved her head from my chest to my stomach, still wrapping her arm around me.

"She's been asleep all day" I told her. "I tried to wake her up to eat but she refuses. Saying she's to tired to stay awake"

"Figures" Noelle sighs. "But still she can't sleep all day without eating. I'll order food. Then she should be okay by tomorrow morning"

"Yup. As soon as she's okay I'm taking her back to LA"

"Hailee." Noelle took a breath. Her eyes scanned the room before they reach mine. She looks down at y/n then brings them back up. "Y/n still has a few things she needs to take care of."

"Noelle we already had this conversation" I whispered.

"And I agree with you I do but... y/n has a contract." Noelle bit the bottom of her lip. "What do you think your mom would do if y/n breaks it"

"Which is why I going to take my moms offer" I say.

Noelle nods her head letting out a frustrated chuckle. That's the only form of laugh I've been getting from her lately. Mix that in with her eye roll, her disappointed sigh. All those reactions, emotions i've been receiving from her i've seen be directed towards someone else, mainly my brother when he would do the same to me. Overwork me, and now I was on the receiving end. And if I was being honest, I didn't like it. It made me feel like guilty. Even if she did have a right to feel and act the way she was.