En·dear·ing

Drowning in loss

Kuba • POV

I hate hospital.

I hate hospitals so much.

I haven't been in one in 15 years, not after what happened.

Dominic always swore to me that he would never take me back to one knowing my past but I guess I understand where he's coming from.

I'm still mad at him though.

Fuck I sound like Arden

I don't think I've ever missed a person so much in my life. My heart aches for her, and I know that makes me sound like a bitch. But that's the only way I can explain it.

I've tried calling her but it keeps going straight to voice mail. She won't even read my texts.

Dominic called yesterday saying that he went back to Italy and handled the problem but I don't even care about what happened with our abusers.

It's not the first time it's happed to me, but it did scare me because I haven't felt that way in so long.

The only thing I could focus on was Arden's face as she watched what looked like us cheating on her.

I haven't got any sleep since that night and I think it's catching up to me.

I keep hallucinating thinking she's here, or sometimes I hear her voice.

The doctors tried to give me sleeping pills because of my hallucinations, but of course they didn't work. I've been given every remedy on this earth for sleeping normally, and none of them work.

But all I have to do was lie down with Arden's head on my chest and her legs wrapped around me for me to sleep like a fucking baby.

*flashback*

"Arden let's go I'm tired baby" I said laying my head on her shoulder as she tried pulling away from me.

"But Kuba you always want to sleep when I just get here, can we go out today? It's only 9:00." She said pouting trying to release my grip on her waist.

"Tomorrow baby, let's just go to bed im tired" I said picking her up carrying her up the stairs.

"Dominic save me" she said grabbing onto him with her free arms as we passed him.

He placed a kiss on her lips before saying "bed baby, Kuba said he's tired"

I smirked hearing her whine as I continued up the steps.

When I reached the room I threw her onto the bed closing the door to lock it in a secret spot.

I walked to the bathroom taking off my shirt and pants grabbing my toothbrush to brush my teeth.

I walked back into the room brushing my teeth watching as Arden struggled trying to open the door.

"What if Dominic can't get in" she asked pouting wanting the door open.

Handing her toothbrush to her I said "he has a key to all the rooms in the house"

She stomped to the bathroom and soon she was brushing her teeth with me.

I tried grabbing her closer but she just pouted and pulled away.

When I was done I watched her in the mirror as she bounced her head singing a song as she continued brushing.

When she was done she surprisingly allowed me to lift her up bring her back to the room.

Yawning I placed us on the bed with her on top of me and as I tried to fall asleep I kept feeling her moving trying to get a comfortable spot.