Amnesia >> M.C

IX

     Infinity

     The wind continously whipped my blue hair back as I wrapped my arm around the girls waist, my lips pulling up into a wide smile as we took selfies together. I havent been in the US since I was about fifteen years old, and now here I am, back in my home state meeting some of my own fans. It's crazy what can happen when you conquer your dreams, I never thought that I'd come back to the US - Never mind come back as a famous singer.
     "Thank you so much for the picture Infinity!" The girl smiled widely as I engulfed her into one last hug

     "No problem baby girl, it was great meeting you!" I pulled out of the hug and gave her a small peck on the cheek before she ran off with her friends, all of them giggling happily about how they finally met Every Minute and 5 Seconds Of Summer.

     "Our fans are the greatest I swear to god." Ashley comments as she flings her arm over my shoulder. "They're like a giant army, we could probably win wars!" She exagerates happily as we all head back inside the venue that we're playing, since we thought it'd be nice to meet some of our fans who were patiently waiting for the venue. "They do, they win fandom awards, and the war to get award shows!" I laughed lightly.

     "Oh please, the 5sosfam dominates against the EMarmy." Ashton adds in, giving Ashley a playful glare that she instantly returned.

     Ashley and Ashton have gotten a lot closer with each other since the beginning of  tour, and I think it's pretty obvious that they're bound to start dating soon, even though Ashton has been talking to this problematic model named Bryanna, but I think Ashley really does stand more of a chance against her.

     I smile to myself as Ashton and Ashley continue to have their little banter, the two of them and rest of the guys heading int the lads dressing area while I go into mine and Ashley's. A soft sigh escaped my lips as I flop down onto the couch and close my eyes. I couldn't stop thining about what's been going on with the lads, we've been getting closer again, but my relationship with Michael has been plaguing my mind.

     When we were in Japan last month while he was doing my hair, he was so close to kissing me, but of course I just had to sneeze and ruin th whole thing. It got me thinking about 'us'. What's going on between the two of us? Ae we becoming something more than what we are now? He probably didn't want to kiss me, maybe he was just caught up into the moment, we both were, but really who knows. All I know is that I shouldn't be over-thinking thiss, besides, it's not like he did kiss me. All he did was lean in and then felt the impact of me sneezng, nothing more.

     "Whatcha doing by yourself kitten, you're missing out on all the fun." Michael's voice breaks me from my thoughts as he sits down on the couch next to me and lazily drapes his arm over my shoulder

     "Nothing really, just thinking." I shrug my shoulders as I mold myself into his side.

      "A penny for your thoughts?" He rests his head on top of mine.

      "Just thinking about everyone." I shrug my shoulders once more. We've all grown together since tour has started. Ciara and I are somewhat on good terms, Luke and I are back to being best ies. Ashton and Ashley might be a thing. We're all good again." He chuckles lighty and shakes his head. "What's so funny?" I cock my eyebrow upwards.

      "I love how you basically mentioned everyone else, except for me. We've grown togethe too, you know." He playfully rolls his eyes at me.

       "That's true, we have." I giggle and nod my head before resting it on his shoulder.

       Mikey and I have rebuilt a friendship, which I never expected to happen. We've put our past behind us and started everything over, but yet our past still continues to haunt me. My old feelings for him just want to make everything harder for me, don't they? As if trying to become friends him with him again wasn't enough, but the idea of me still loving him just seems to make everything worse and awkward.

      "Finn, can I ask you something?" Mikey spoke softly.

      "Of course Mikey, fire away." I bit my bottom lip gently.

      "That night when I was dying your hair, do you remember what happened?"

      "Yeah, we got a little too closed and I ended up sneezing all over your face, why do you ask?"

      He chuckled and shook his head. "I was just wondering, that's all."

      "Oh, okay." I murmured and nodded my head

      A small comfortable silence settled over the two of us as we continued to cuddle on the couch. His arm was stll thrown over my shoulder and pulled me closer to his body as I curled up into a ball and snuggled into him, my head resting on his chest and listenin to his heart beat. Even when we were dating, I always loved to cuddle with him. I loved the feeling of him holding me and listening to his heart beat. After all, he's the tear in my heart, he made my heart race so I wanted to see if I had the same effect on him.

     After a moment I felt his fingers playing around my my blue hair, braiding it, stroking it, and twirling it around in his fingers. Everything felt so peaceful, like we never stopped being close with each other. If only I knew if he still loved me, if only I knew how he felt. The day that he left me I wanted to just bash my head into a all, or get into an accident, and have amnesia so that way I could forget about him and everything that happened between us, but now that I think about it maybe that night was supposed to happen for a reason. Maybe it happened to prove that love can over-come anything... well... that is if he still feels that same for me.