This one's for you (Alan Ashby)

Today was the day I, Skyla Rose Allen was going to see my all time favorite band Of Mice & Men! I was completely surprised when my brother Mike said he scored us some tickets to their Warped Tour show in San Antonio! He was only a year older than me making him 23 and I, 22. I currently live with him and his fiance Kayla. Who I might add was incredible! She was actually the one who got me the ticket for my birthday back in November.

It was 5am and I couldn't sleep with all the excitement. I decided to get on my blog that was basically my entire life. I was talking about how amazing everything was turning out to be. You see I recently was having problems with my boyfriend well ex now. He started drinking again and it never went well for me. I told him that I was done with all his drinking and just about everything else that had to do with him. It felt so good to get rid of that dead weight but at the same time it hurt because I loved him, I really did but he cheated on me with his ex and that was about the time he started drinking again.

I was a self Harmer and tried to kill myself a few times due to him... And I was always the one people would look down on like I was never going to Do anything with my life. Especially when I was younger. In the 7th grade I lost my bestest friend ever, he ended his life because he was always bullied for being gay and I got to spend 3 years of my youth in therapy trying to stop the cutting. My followers always knew when something was up well this one did. He always comments on everything I posted. He was my rock but unfortunately this rock wouldn't give me his name and he was always anonymous. Well as I started posting about my life and how today was the day that I was finally meeting my heroes, the men that have saved my life countless times. When I was upset I would always blast When you can't sleep at night. It made me feel so comfortable, so safe. I loved it. My anonymous rock would call me and sing that exact song to me when he knew something was up. It ate at me for days to figure out who he was. Finally after months of bugging him about who he was he said his name was Alan, That's all I knew. I was shocked when my phone started ringing and it was him.

"What Are you doing up so late?" I asked.

"I was just about to ask you the same thing." he chuckled as he spoke. His voice was so comforting. It was sexy and so deep. It was mesmerizing.

"Well if you must know, I couldn't sleep because I've been waiting for this exact day for years!"

"What's so special about today?" he asked curiously.

"Today is the day that I'm FINALLY going to go see OM&M!" I exclaimed.

"No way! I am too! Maybe I'll see you there!"

"I hope I do see you! We can go to the signing together!"

"I would love that." he said softly. I yawned and he heard it.

"Babe, Are you sleepy? Maybe you should go to bed." he said to me. He always calls me Babe and it never bothered me, it just made me melt.

"Maybe I should get some rest for the concert."

"Yea you should, especially since I'll get to see you, you need energy."

"You're right. I'll go to bed."

"Alright good. I can't wait to finally see you gorgeous."

"And I can't wait to finally see you handsome."

"Oh stop, you're making me blush!"

"Good! I feel so accomplished!" he chuckled. "Well go to sleep my love and I'll see you later. Ok?"

"Alright alright I'm going."

"Goodnight or Good morning. either one works. I'll see you later." I started laughing.