Hidden Love (Tronnor fanfiction)

~34~ A walk

Troye's pov

I woke up the next morning with lights shining through the curtains and a sobbing noise next to me. Wait, a sobbing noise?! I quickly turned around to Connor's direction. I found him curled up on his side of the bed. His body shook a bit from the sobs that escaped his mouth. I put my arm around his torso and started saying comforting words.
"Ssh Connor, it's okay."

I rubbed my hand up and down his back. I know that before he tells me what's wrong, I have to make him feel a bit better. I walked to his side of the bed and sat down on my knees beside him. He looked up through his eyelashes with this sad smile of him. That smile can break my heart every time again. I will never get used to it. I picked up his hand and intertwined our fingers, giving a little peck on it. I rubbed my thumb against his hand and repeated this for a while. I kept saying comforting things like: "It's going to be okay." and "I love you." After a while he seemed to relax a bit, the sobbing noises began to quieten down.

"Can you tell me what's wrong, Con? Do you regret last night? That's it, isn't it? Oh god I should've known. I'm so sorry Connor. I probably pushed you without realizing it. I will nev-"

He didn't let me speak, he interrupted me when his lips met mine. Does this mean he doesn't regret it? When he broke the kiss of, he just stared at me for a second before speaking up again.

"I regret nothing, okay? I've never felt so good and loved. It's just that today...."
He broke his sentence of halfway.
"What is it today?"

"It's Nicola's birthday."
"Oh Connor... Can I do something for you?"
"Can we just make this a fun last day in Australia?" He asked me shyly. It's obviously not only the fact that it's Nicola's birthday but also that he has to leave tomorrow morning. I would love to have him longer here. I want to have him close.

"Do you want to do something with the rest of our friends or rather with the two of us?" I asked him.
"Can we just like cuddle or something? I don't want to miss you Troye. I don't want to leave you for another month or longer. I need you in my life." He said, staring into my eyes. I felt tears coming up because I know I can't promise him we will see each other sooner than a month. I really don't know what life is going to bring us both. Maybe I can come to him in a few weeks but it can also be in a few months. I hate it that everything is so unsure.

I saw at his eyes that he knows I'm not going to say it's going to be soon. We both know that would be a lie. I just gave him a sad smile and placed my head against his, my arm draped around him. His head fell to my shoulder and we stayed like that for a while. Not saying a word, just enjoying the silence and each others company.

"We should do something with the others. They're here because I asked them to, so it's only fair to do something with them." Connor spoke up, breaking the silence that had formed.

"Connor, I'm sure they'll understand if you don't want that. You don't need to, you know that, right?" I asked him. He doesn't need to feel pressured into doing something with them.

"No, it's alright. Staying here in bed is not much better. I'm in Australia, I better see something of it then. I need to have pictures for my instagram." He giggled. Yes, that's my Connor.

"I can show you some nice places. We can go on a hike!" I almost squealed with excitement. I really don't know where that came from. I'm not the "stand up from my bed or couch" type of person. I guess Connor has that influence on me.

"Yes let's do that! I'm going to text everyone." It seems like I'm not the only one who's excited. It's cute how he gets so excited though, especially when an hour ago he was crying and you really wouldn't say that right now.