Seventeen Imagines.

His legal wife (pt 7)

Hoshi' POV

"H-Hoshi-yah...p-please don't blame yourself. A-Arasso?", she said while trying her best to breathe.

"D-don't....Jane please don't talk now, okay? We'll be their soon.", I said while holding her hands which were cover with red blood.

She smiled at me, "I am f-fine-- Ugh!!", red blood coughed out of her mouth.

"Jane! Yah! I said don't talk.....please....please...", I begged while sobbing.

"Hoshi....", she called and cupped my face using all the strength she had, "this was not your f-fault, hmm? D-don't ever blame yourself...."

"WHAT DO YOU MEAN?! Nothing will happen to you. So please stop talking.", I begged again

"I love you Hoshi.....I really do.", saying that her hands on my face fell and her black doe eyes closed. It closed forever and never opened.
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"Hufff!!!"

I woke up while gasping loudly. I saw her again after so long. This dream that had happened for real before have been haunting me.

'Jane.'

Jane was the love of my life and also my fiancée. But she died three years ago from a car accident.

"It's my fault!!", I said and started sobbing loudly, "If only I was there with her....it wouldn't have happened."

All the persons I loved and all the persons who loved me died. No one around me can be happy. This is why I chose not to love anyone and isolated far from everyone. No one will be happy with me.

My parents died and so did Jane. And it's all my fault. If only I didn't throw tantrum to celebrate my birthday, then my parents would have been here with me; and only if I agreed to pickup Jane, then we would have been living happily together today. But these never happened and I blame myself for these.

She told me not to blame myself and that it wasn't my fault, but how can I when they all died right in front of my eyes.

"WHY?! What did I even do? Why?", I shouted and asked why my fate was so unfortunate. Today, I am crying after years, I've been holding in everything but I couldn't hold it in anymore.

Before when I cried and broke down like now, there was no one to comfort me. That was what I needed the most that time but no one ever stood by my side. What about now?

"Shhh....it's okay.", I felt a pair of arms around me and tapping on my back, "It's okay now, I'm here.", the sweet voice spoke. I immediately knew who that was. "You can cry.....it's really fine.", she said and before I even knew, I broke down in her arms.

Her presence was really comforting me, I was sad and hurt but also I felt safe. Is this how it feels to have someone by your side?

I have no idea how long I was in her arms, but I'm sure it was quite long but she never let go of me. She hugged me all the time I was crying.

I finally looked at her face and she slowly let go of her arms around me, "You okay?", she asked me while trying her best to show me a genuine smile but I could clearly see the concern behind her smile.

Why? Why didn't I notice those features of her before? Her big doe eyes and the long curled eyelashes, small cute nose which turns red whenever she's shy, her small pale face and....my eyes diverted to her rosy lips.