A little Escape From Life: A vent Story

Note

I want to scream and shout, but I can't because every day my parents have to say at least 5 things to annoy me it's always either something stupid, something about my body, making me feel ashamed of myself, fighting with each other or just simply doing things I hate. 

My dad forces me to exercise when I already try my best. 

I want to kill myself. 

I hate having them at home.

I hate society.

I hate people.

I hate life.

I hate myself.

I have attachment issues.

I have so many phobias that I can't count.

I pretend that I'm the victim.

I'm selfish.

I have many friends but 0 friends that I can truly trust and accept me.

I always lie.

I want so many things.

A better Society

A better Life

Money

People who love me

Real Friends

A happy family

I know people have reason/excuses for being racist, homophobic, etc.

But it still hurts me...

No matter what I do,

They keep comparing me.

They keep blaming me.

And yet,

I go along with it

Every.

Single.

Time.

I'm tired of it, I want to change yet I don't have the motivation to.

I want to be successful but lack everything, talent, motivation, skill, you name it.

Humans are greedy, and so are you even the nicest person is greedy for something could be protecting someone, saving the world, and more.

If you can relate to most of these things, I don't pity you because it's normal. People have doubts, regrets, and other crap. I know I'm a hypocrite for saying this but...

Society sucks we know that we can't fix it, but we can "fix" ourselves. 

We can evolve.

We can be better than those scumbags,

Who make us feel like shit.

You might have abusive parents, divorced parents, perfect parents, nice parents, and hardworking parents, but no matter what...

In this world nothing's more important than happiness, I wanted to write this because I'm sad and I have nothing to do, stuck with things to do I don't want to do them yet I find myself here writing a depressing "Speech" and deciding to make a book about it. Even though I suck at writing and will probably lose motivation to work on this, but at least you can see this part.

I only got 10 words left to say.

You don't need them, so let go,

And be you.