TO EVERYONE, FROM MANAKO.

Dear Everyone,

Grammar errors ahead.

Dear, Everyone.

       Hello, its me, Manako (/manako-San456 or something) and i know that it's been a while now. I decided to write things here because i wanted to do something for myself and especially for everyone here on wattpad as well. I know that I didn't end up leaving on good terms with everyone and I'm sorry for the sudden leave. It's been 6 years now so i know that you guys won't probably be able to see this now but i wanted to get this out of my chest for a long time now so.. here i am, writing this letter for everyone. I really left wattpad and focused on my life outside the internet world, it did gave me so much improvements as a person. Touching grass is really helpful/hj

       First of all, i miss all of you. All my friends, the people who i had great memories with. With this app i discovered the internet world w people  (not kidding i was just trying to watch and read creepypasta that time lmao) and found my first ever internet friends. Right now, I only have connection w 3 ppl from this app and I'm glad i still see them til this time. I just wanted to let you guys know that you guys had always helped keep me distracted from stressful stuff way back then :) I'm glad that i made so much friends in this app, however it also gave me so much trauma, too. :( Though I've healed but it still makes me sad. I know some of y'all did too and im so sorry about that. I just hope you guys are doing well and healthy right now. <33

        2nd, I just want to apologize for everything, for every little thing i did as a young person. I lied to some of you and hurt some of you and i deeply apologize for that. I'm sorry that i left without a goodbye. I know it's probably hard for yall or some of yall to accept my apology because i hurt you guys but I've grown and still owe you guys an apology even if it was years ago, the fact i hurt people will never change, I'm trying to become a better person now and end on good terms w everyone. I know that saying sorry wouldn't fix anything, if i left a hole in your hearts unhealed just let me know so i could say something to you guys and atleast try to fix it. I lied to some of you and hurt some of you and i deeply apologize for that.

         I also want to thank everyone for being my friends. You guys are the best. Thank you for being part of me. Thank you for interacting with me, for being friends with me and for being there for me too. I couldn't tag you all and some have probably got their accs deleted so.. but still i hope some of y'all read this (pls vote or dm me if you did lol) i hope you guys are doing well. I just wish for everyone's best. Without you guys, i don't think i would improve as a person. As i write this letter, some weight in my heart has lifted. Im glad that i could express all of these after years. Thank you everyone, for everything, for being part of my life inside and outside the internet, for teaching me and for being there for me. <3

-Manako

      The reason of my disappearance 

          As some of you know, i left around early 2018 or the end of 2017. I left my accounts to rot after a long time because i got locked out of this acc too so I didn't know whether there are people messaging me on this and those account or not until i was able to access it again, i saw some dms but it was too late to reply to those messages as the accounts were already deleted or dead. I know it was a mean thing to leave without a proper goodbye but i believe that the reason for why i left it is the best thing i could do.

      This app is full of manipulators. I believe i was one too. I was young and dumb, i even begged and probably forced a guy to be with me here, dragging my best  friend along with it (regarding to her, I've cut her off, never seen her for years now.) and honestly, it was so bad. For that guy, im so sorry i left you but i hope you know why, i dont even know if you're ever going to see this. Lol. Aside from that, People are treating me like Sh8 for real, some people also stopped interacting with me + the bad things i went thru so I got fed up from the issues i faced throughout those days and a young girl should not be going through something like that nor be on the internet. My account was really dying (and died eventually) so i had to drag few close friends who i still wanted to be with and really left for the sake of my reputation and mental health as a kid. I focused on irl life after that but i never get to talk to them anymore even if I still have connections with them, which is understandable for me, Everybody has their own lives and could be busy.

      ABOUT ME

       if you're curious about me, ill write it in this paragraph but if you're not interested that's okay too. I'll be really honest here so, just a trigger warning bc it contains a little vent lol

       I'm a LITERAL grown lady now, iykwim. heh. My eyesights became really poor that i had to wear glasses. My hair length is really long, it's like almost half of my height ngl, the only thing that didn't change ab me is my height, im stuck in 4'10 and w that I couldn't wear fancy clothes cuz they'd only fit for tall or average height girls LMAOOOO. Honestly, my height is one of my insecurities.

       Anyways, here's some stuffs about my mental health. I've actually improve for the past few years but those past few years, i went through a lot tough things that really challenged me as a person. I faced all of it, aware that I'm weak and a coward but i managed. I never get to ask for professional help, but I'm glad irl friends had my back to guide me. Those years was REALLY heavy for me it was one of the biggest challenges i ever went through in my life, i just hope the ppl who i left behind there (for good reasons) are doing okay. I had a relation that was really really traumatizing for me as a woman and as a person, it f-ed me to the core, i wish i could tell details but I can't really bring myself to talk about it anymore. Remembering about it makes me sick and makes me panic. I've healed but I can't look back at it. Fortunately, I was able to get out of those situations and healed. But Right now, im still stressed as hell because of academics, week although i survived this year. I stay up late a lot and i don't even know when was the last time i slept early, uni sucks >< . Anyways, I'm kinda doing well now, I've been trying to support myself with art commissions for years. I currently have 2 pets! I have 2 dogs and had 3 hamsters and o god i love them sm. Im doing so much better now unlike before however I still can be a little unstable if that makes sense lol. Im currently trying to seek for professional help!! Pls be proud/j

N: If you ever want to interact w me you can dm me.