"Do you feel the Love? " (MileApo)

Confusing Feelings

Hello everyone, I started watching Bl's this year only and till now I have watched quite a lot but KinnPorsche is something really special for me.
Mile Apo's chemistry is out of this world!
I never thought I would be writing a fanfic but here I am.
I hope Mile and Apo keep supporting each other like this always.
Here's a short story I wrote about how I think they might have confessed their feelings for each other. I hope you enjoy it!

(The story is written from Miles's point of view)

It was the night of the 1st KinnPorsche world tour event.
The event was a success, everyone was chilling backstage now.

I was sitting there feeling really hungry but I was too tired to get up and pick my food. Just then Apo came there, he was looking really handsome today I thought to myself.

He said "It was such a great event P'Mile. You looked really great on the stage playing that fabulous guitar, just like a Rockstar " and then he started mimicking me playing the guitar.

I loved this about Apo he always speaks what's on his mind, he always does what he wants to do without worrying about what others would think about him. He never shies away from complimenting me.
I am however not that expressive and open with my feelings. I just can't express my feelings easily in front of others. Like today I wanted to tell Apo that he was looking really handsome and that he sang so well but I never said this to him. I just hope he gets to know somehow how much I care about him because I suck at expressing my feelings.

" Like a Rockstar you say, haha. Thank you Po "

" Aren't you getting some food? I thought you would be mad hungry by now" Apo asked.

"Oh I was just about to get some but I feel so tired, I don't even want to stand up. I'm so lazy "

" No problem, I'll get it for you P'Mile, I'm anyways going to get mine "

"But how would you know what to get for me? " I asked.

"Oh I know, you eat almost everything there is" he said laughing ( everyone knew how much I love food and they often made fun of me for that)

"Not everything " I said sulking.

"Don't worry, I know what you want " He said and went away.

I know what he said was in context of food but it really made me blush when he said he knew what I want.

He came back after a few minutes carrying two plates in his hands one for me, one for him.
I saw his plate , he had picked only a few dishes, he's very picky when it comes to food.
Then he gave me my plate and I was surprised to see that he got me exactly what I wanted and in the right amount.

"Got everything that you want there, P'Mile" He asked with a naughty smile as he saw me staring at my plate.

"Well you certainly know what I like to eat. You did a good job. From now on I'll always send you to pick my food " I teased him.
We loved teasing each other.

After we finished our meal, Apo went to get his bag. He came back and pulled out a chocolate from his bag and gave it to me.

"How did you know that I wanted to eat a chocolate, are you reading my mind" I asked in surprise.

" You always eat something sweet after your meal but today we didn't have anything sweet on our menu so eat this instead. Anyways I bought this chocolate for you only ,you know i don't like chocolates that much and I kept it in my bag because sometimes you feel hungry when we are travelling or giving interviews so I thought it would come handy then. "

"You are so observant " I said.

"Well, i think it's a good thing to observe if it's helps you make other people happy" He smiled

These little things that he did made him so different from others, made him so special for me. Like he is always fixing my hair and costume, he always asks me if I've eaten properly, whenever he senses that I'm worried he would come and comfort me, he always looks out for me whenever we are in a crowd. He is really a very kind and caring person.

After our meal P'Pond called us all to discuss something regarding our next event. After the brief meeting everyone was ready to go home, we all were feeling really exhausted.
I picked all my things and packed my bag. I wanted to say goodnight to Apo before I left so I looked around for him but he was nowhere to be seen.
I went outside and checked, I checked all the green rooms, I asked Build and Bas whom I met on my way out if they had seen Apo but they refused.
I started to get anxious and agitated.
Almost everyone had left by now, but I didn't want to leave ,not without saying goodnight to him. I was so worried, where did he go, he never left without saying bye to me .

Suddenly someone patted on my shoulder ,I turned around smiling thinking it was Apo but it was actually Bible standing behind me.
He asked me why haven't I gone home yet .
I said I was looking for Apo because I had to return something to him.
Of course I lied I didn't have anything to return to Apo but I couldn't possibly tell Bible that I wanted to see Apo's face one more time before I went home.

Bible said " Oh, Apo went home a little early he said he had some work at home. I'm also leaving just now. See you soon P'Mile. Bye "

"Bye" I said absentmindedly.

I felt this sudden surge of jealousy inside me, Why did Apo tell Bible he was going home early, why didn't he tell me. I was so worried for him. I felt angry at him and I decided I won't talk to him nicely when I meet him the next time.

I don't like this feeling of jealousy but recently I've been feeling jealous a lot.
Just like today when we were on stage, Apo was holding Bas's hand and not mine and I felt so jealous in that moment that I took Bas's ear piece and put it on his shoulder rudely. I don't even know why I did that I just wanted Bas to leave Apo's hand so that he could hold mine.
Later on Apo did hold my hand and I felt so happy , happy like a child who has found his lost toy.

Lately my feelings for Apo have changed and it's so confusing.
Like I'm always looking for him, in a room full of people my eyes are always stuck on him, I get agitated when he's not around, I get jealous when he's laughing and goofing around with someone else.
I'm laughing like crazy when he's with me. Just his mere presence makes me feel happy and comforted.
Even our fans have started noticing that I'm always looking and smiling at Apo, it's embarrassing but I can't control it, I automatically start to smile whenever I see his face, it has become an involuntary reflex of my body.
Is it all because we have been spending so much time together or do I like him.
Shit! Shit! Shit!?!? I think I like him.
I have been avoiding these feelings for a while now but i don't think I can hide them anymore, these feelings are overwhelming me.
But I don't know how he feels, what if he doesn't like me this way.
Oh my god, why is this happening with me, why did I fall for him?

I was lost in all these thoughts when I reached my car. I was about to get in when I saw Apo running towards me.