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Chapter 4- Her.

Authors note- I didn't realize that the picture of Greyson didn't post so I'll try again👆👆👆 anddddd I'm going to start doing question of the chapter to kinda socialize with my readers more. Y'all can just comment your answer😊

Now that I think about it, and everything that just happened Taydin is an asshole. The only reason he is trying to be all sweet towards me is so he can 'get some' How didn't I think of this earlier? Wow. I'm such an idiot. Fuck dude. I've came to the conclusion that when I think to myself it's almost always about things that I should have noticed like a week before.

Well today has just been great! Not. I came home today from going out to eat with a few of my friends and Greyson and my dad are in the garage. I go in to see what they're up to. I make my way over to them and the derby cars they are to madly in love with.

Greyson smiles at me I smile back and say hi. He looks really good tonight.. Wow..
I sit on the hood of the car and the first thing he says to me is Greyson has a date tonight. Did I hear that correctly? Did he just say he had a date? That's why he looks so nice, I think my heart just shattered.. All of these thoughts are racing through my mind. My swore to god I felt my heart break. I just replied with "Ooh cool. You look nice. With who? I could have swore I was on the verge of crying I casually looked away so they wouldn't see my tears. "Do you remember the girl from Runnings that one day that we went?" My dad asked. Assuming that it was her I knew that I had been defeated. She was gorgeous, skinny, long hair. I was nor had none of those. I just came back with "Ooh yeah, her. She's pretty.... What time?" Why was I asking? I didn't give a shit. I wanted him.. I hated pretty people. I don't even know her and I want to cut her. "Ten." "Well it's already 10:15 homie." " I know. I was waiting for you to get here." I blushed a little then remembered that I'm suppose to be furious right now. "Yeah. Well I'm here. You can go on your date now." I said then stormed out of the garage and up to my room and locked the door and cried.
I heard my phone vibrate, but I didn't care. All I wanted was him. He's all I need. I think I love him. I checked my phone. It was a text from Greyson.

(A= Aalayieh, G= Greyson)

G- Hey. You mad at me?
A- No. Why?
G- You seemed pissed that I was going out with her.
A- I'm not pissed Greyson. I just really like you, and I really don't want to lose you. The thing is I'd do anything for you to realize that. You mean everything to me. I guess I'm kinda frustrated, but the reason I'm not pissed off is because you're happy, and that's what means the most to me. Your happiness. I don't think you realize that, but forget it. As long as you're happy I'm more than happy. You mean so much to me. Your happiness is more important than mine. I'm happy that you found somebody who makes you happy. I wish the best for you.

It took me forever to type that stopping every 15 seconds to wipe my phone from the tears that were falling out of my eyes faster and harder than pouring rain in April.

G- Ooh. I didn't know you felt like that. Sorry. You knew I liked you and it didn't even see, like you cared.
A- Okay. Whatever Greyson. That's just what I do. I push people away because I know that they deserve better than me. Some girl that has depression and cuts herself, and I know that anyone that falls in love with me is fucked, and they have a lot to deal with if they are willing to even try.
G- I'm willing to try. Friends?
A- I don't care. But I'll let you get back to your date.
G- K. I'll text you after.
A- Don't bother.

I was so mad I don't even know how to explain it. I cried myself to sleep and dreamt about him coming over tomorrow and telling us all about how he had a awesome night with her and everything . I can't even explain my anger right now.

I woke up and went downstairs to find something to drink. Greyson was already here, talking with my dad. Smiling. Probably talking about last night.