YOU EVER SPEND YOUR DAYS slowly drifting further and further until you can no longer reach yourself. Just when you think you've reached the bottom, there they are, tying more stones around your ankles. Whispers escape their lips, twisting the truth until it becomes unrecognizable.
Escape, I am told, to a future so far out of my grasp that I can't see the other side. Twisted smiles mock me as I stumble further down my ever-changing path. Hands reach out, holding onto pieces of slowly decomposing flesh. Its hard to breathe, my mouth sewn shut, forever told to keep silent. I am to see only what they allow me to see.
Fighting is pointless. What I say or do will ultimately be used against me in the end. Just lie down and surrender, that's what they want... Be their little puppet, let them control your every move... You no longer have control... Accept it...You're not good enough,...you will NEVER BE....
YOU ARE ALONE.... YOU HAVE NOTHING... WHY ARE YOU STILL HERE... NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU... JUST GIVE UP ALREADY....
I'm so tired, I just want to rest. Maybe, just a little bit... Fall into the darkness...
ONE...
TWO...
How much longer must I wait? Just let me sleep... Give me an eternal slumber where I can escape this Hell... Please,.. LET ME GO! Stop latching onto me, draining everything that I have left.
THREE...
FOUR...
YOU'RE NOTHING... A NOBODY... NO ONE WILL MISS YOU... WHY EVEN BOTHER.... THEY'LL BE BETTER WITHOUT YOU...
Melodies forever playing over and over like a broken record. Never fully silenced, always lingering like a lullaby.
How can you feel like this? They ask. You have so much to live for. You have your whole life ahead of you. But they don't understand.
I feel so hollow. I have for a while, but they can't see past the fake, plastered on smile.
FIVE...
SIX...
I wonder... How much longer...
SEVEN...
EIGHT...
I wonder... Who would care... They don't understand... They can't...
NINE...
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I GIVE UP
