Blue Everything / Aokuro / KNB / ONESHOT

Blue Everything

My hair makes me gag whenever I see myself in the mirror. I can't stand blue. Blue anything, makes me sick.

"Hey, Kuroko, are you okay?" Kagami asked. He placed his hand on my shoulder.

I nod. "I'm fine. I get sick often anyways."

"No, but like, you're getting sick more often now." Kagami said. "Have you checked the doctors?"

"No, it's not like they'll diagnose me. I'm sure I'm fine." I stand up and grab a coffee for the both of us. "Are you going to play in the basketball games this week?"

"Maybe. I want to, but if I don't finish this paperwork, boss will fire me for sure this time." He groaned and took the coffee from my hand.

I flop down on my bed and close my eyes. Kagami wore a navy shirt, I felt my stomach turn. I place blanket over my head and wish for the pain to go away. Blue anything, makes me sick. It's been over 10 years since Teiko middle. This sickness feels like it's been with me forever. I've checked the doctors when I was younger, but they never found anything. Going to the doctors is useless. This sickness has no cure. It'll eat me alive.

I open my eyes and stare at the ceiling. I turn to my alarm clock and see that I've woken up two hours eariler than my usual time. I get up from bed and wash up. I head to the kitchen and make myself a sandwich and watch television while I'm at it. My head stings a little and I quickly brush it off. Headaches are nothing compared to my stomach problems. I finish up and grab my bag and keys. I open the door and head to work.

"Morning Kurokocchii." Kise smiled.

"Morning Kise-kun." I say.

"Heading to work early?" Kise asked.

I nod, "You?"

"I'm just taking a walk. Modeling doesn't start until 10." Kise replied. "Have you seen Aominecchii? I haven't seen him recently."

My heart burns by those words. "No, I haven't seen him. Shouldn't he be patrolling the park?" I reply. I fidget with my bag.

"Hmm, maybe I'll go check the park." Kise said.

"My workplace. Here. Goodbye." I say.

Kise frowns and waves. "We should hang out sometime. You shouldn't overdo yourself."

I smile softly, "I won't."

Kise-kun is a great friend. He's honest, childish, and reliable. He's, if I'm right, the most immature one out of the Generation of Miracles. Which I enjoy spending time with. Most days now, I don't go out anymore. I guess I've gone overboard with work and has become an workaholic. But, work is what makes me forget about my sickness. Well, pushes it to the side really.

"You're falling asleep again." Kagami said.

I shoot my head up. "Sorry."

Kagami sighed and continued to write on the computer. "Not enough sleep?"

I sigh. "I woke up two hours before my alarm. I should've fell back to sleep, but if I did, I'd probably never wake up."

Kagami laughed. "You're getting old."

"We're the same age."

~_~_~_~

I watch the children horse around on the playground. I work as a teacher as a second job which I enjoy. I enjoy spending time with children, teaching them. Hyuga also ended up being a teacher. He teaches the higher grades, while I teach kindergardens. He visits the school time to time.

"Afternoon, Kuroko."

I turn to see Hyuga sit down next to me on the bench. I smile. "Afternoon."

"How are the kids?" He asks.

"Great. They're really great kids." I say.

"That's good." Hyuga handed me a bag. "Kiyoshi bought this for you, but he doesn't know where you live. Ended up shipping it to me. He could've texted me before shipping it. I could've told him your address." He groaned.

I laugh and take the bag. "Thanks." I open the bag and see a nice looking coat, but I swallow a gag. "It's a very nice blue. Tell him I said thanks."

"Mhm." He mummbled. "How's your other job?"

"Things are going alright. Kagami yells a lot though." I reply.

"I can picture that." Hyuga rubbed his eye. "I think I should get going. I have to teach afternoon classes."

"See you." I wave.

I sigh and walk back home. I stummble forward and get catched by someone.

"Tetsu?"

I look up and see Aomine. His blue hair covers my vision and I quickly shut my eyes. "Sorry. I wasn't looking ahead."

"Oh, it's alright." He says. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I'll be going now." I continue to look down at my feet and walk pass him. My stomach turns and my heart races. I'm fine.

I shut the door and slide down it. I hit the floor and my eyes burst with tears. Blue makes me sick. I notice through my teary eyes the navy blue jacket that Kiyoshi bought me in the bag. I close the bag and let my tears stream down my face. It's hot.

"I like you, Testu."

I force a smile and reply. "Sorry, I don't think it'd work out." I watch Aomine's face grow dark, but he smiles it off.

"I was expecting this. Thanks for hearing me."

I rub my eyes and frown. I know why I'm sick. I've always known. Since the begginning. I laugh at myself for being a coward, a loser, for being pathetic. I felt my heart pound harder and my stomach cramped. My head spinned and I just laugh it off. I'm fine. I look up and out the window. I get up from the ground and walk to it. I look down and see Aomine patrolling the streets. I smile and lay on my bed. I stare at the ceiling for a few minutes.

I sacrificed my happiness for Momoi-san. I gave her a chance with Aomine-kun, and I don't regret it. But yet I feel so sad. They're already married, so why do I still have these feelings I was supposed to throw away years ago? I'm happy for them. Very happy. So why am I so jealous of their happiness?

"I loved him..." I cry out. I let my tears drop to my ears. It's best if I get rid of these feelings for good and let go of him. I'm fine. I'll just let this sickness consume me until the day I die.

Blue Everything. Makes me sick.