MY INNER FEELINGS

FADED MEMORIES......

Hello my dear readers. I hope you can relate this chapter with someone and face the reality.......

Sometimes it hurts, when the person you love the most is no longer with you and left you permanently.
The thought of him never coming back to this world hurts so much.
Sometimes while sleeping, when you suddenly remember that particular person, it really really hurts to the point of crying out alone while burying your face in pillow, just to be unnoticed by the people that your are crying.
Sometimes you feel happy or sad by remembering the memories of your loved ones. Be it a happy or a sad memory you would like to treasure every single memory of that person.
But it hurts so much when the memories of that person are completely faded from your mind and heart.
The moment when you realise that the memories are all faded, you are completely broken. You want to remember every memory of that person but you can't restore it.
You keep running to find those lost memories but it's of no use. Because there is no ending point. Even though you know there is no ending line you will just keep on running out of hope.
But it's really of no use to run after those memories because even though you run and run you are still at your starting line. There is no use running for the past.
Past is past. We cannot change it. But if you use your present skillfully then you can change your future. Your future is in your hands. There is a saying too right? You are the artist of your own life and never ever give the brush to someone else.
You are grieving over the past. It's of no use. Just accept the reality and move on.
Even though it is hard, instead of running aimlessly, just stop running. Just accept your past and come to your senses.
Start running to achieve something in your life, soon you will be successful.

You all may be wondering whom I'm talking about in the initial paragraphs right?. Yes, I'm talking about someone and remembering that person while writing those lines. And that someone is my dad. My father died in an accident. At that time I'm just 5 years old. I don't even know what dying means. When my father left, I cried and cried till no tears left in my eyes. I really missed and still miss him too. I love him so much. I used to cry every night by remembering him, but then I started to face reality as I was a grown up.
But what makes me even more sad is I don't even remember a single thing about my father. I was just 5 so, I don't remember anything about him. Even my sister remembered about him though she was 7 at that time. Slowly memories of him faded from my mind and heart completely.
When I was in 9th class I heard from my biology sir that when you cry, you won't remember what you are crying for. If this is really true then I regret crying in the past. I think that's why I don't have memories of him......

Hello guys, I hope you can understand the message from this chapter and I need you to move on and start a life because you deserve it......

If there are any grammatical mistakes please inform me, i will correct that because English is not my first language and I am still learning

Anyway thank you guys for reading. It means a lot to me....

Your's lovingly,
Thanu 🥰