The Sky Under The Sea. {Sequel To Lead Me Out Of The Dark.}

Chapter 21:Waiting.

"See you guys made up, finally decided to be mature?" Alan says. I rub the sleep from my eyes and look at Alan who is standing in front of our bunk. "Alan fuck off." Austin hisses. I just laugh but then I realize under the covers we're naked. At that moment Alan pulls the cover off of us. I scream and quickly reach over Austin and close the curtain. "Fucking prick!" I shout. I hear the guys at the front snickering.

"Babe?" I hear Austin call out. "Yes?" I shout back. I start pacing back and forth, cradling Robert in my arms, trying to get him back to sleep.

Robert finally falls asleep after an hour of pacing the room. I head to the front to talk to Austin. "What did you want baby?" I ask him. He looks up from his phone and pats his thighs telling me to sit. I sit on his lap and smile. "I just wanted to ask how you were feeling? Stomach growing?" He pulls up my shirt and looks at my stomach. He gently puts his hand on my stomach and smiles. "Well I'm feeling.....like shit. My stomach hurts today though." Austin frowns and rubs my stomach gently. "Take it easy today." He kisses me gently and then pulls away and smiles. He looks so happy.

"So Tino, how was your birthday?" I ask Tino who is sitting with his head in his hands. "Great except for the fucking hangover I have." I laugh but then get interrupted by Alan and Austin. "SQUIDGY, SQUIDGY FALALALA." Tino quickly covers his ears. "SHUT UP!!" He screams making me jump. Austin and Alan look at each other and laugh. "Glad you think it's funny, fucking pricks. Cock fucking assholes." He mumbles before getting up and leaving the bus. "Hangover?" Austin asks me, I nod my head.

"Babe take me to get McDonaldas!" I shout. Austin covers my mouth with his hand, "Don't shout, I'm right here." I lick his hand and he pulls away quickly. "Nasty, I'm not taking you now." My mouth falls open and I pout right away. "Fine!" He says as he picks me up and puts me over his shoulder. I squeal and hang on to his shirt for dear life. "Alan watch Robert, we're going to mcdicks. I know what you like!" Austin shouts as he steps out of the bus.

We finally got back and I literally ran in the bus and started eating. I was the first one done of course. "Has Austin bin starving you or....?" I roll my eyes and give him the finger. "Leave my pregnant fiancee alone, you ginger peasent!" Austin shouts. I burst out laughing and Alan pretends to be hurt.

Austin, Alan and I decided to just watch movies in the back lounge with Robert. I was cuddling with Robert on the couch until I heard a knock from the door at the front. I sit up and gently place Robert in Austin's arms before getting up and running to the door. "Vic?" Vic was standing at the door with blood on his shirt and hands and tears running down his cheeks. Oh god, I literally felt my stomach churn.

"Vic, what the fuck happened?" Vic looks at me before saying a word. "Tony, he-he cut. Help please, I don't know what to do." He started crying harder. Tony cut? Fuck. "AUSTIN, ALAN!" I scream. I run off the bus and past Vic. Shit Tony why?

"Move the fuck out of way!" I scream. I push past everybody and reach the bathroom. I drop to my knees beside Tony. "Tonzie, why?" Tears start streaming down my face. I get up and frantically look for the things I need. I grab a towel and drop once again beside Tony. I can feel the blood seep through my pants from the puddle that was starting. Tony just looks at me with a blank expression. I hold the towel to his arms and do what I usually do. I pour rubbing alcohol on the cuts, dry them, then put gauze on them.

Everybody was crowded around the door whispering things to each other. "EVERYBODY FUCKING LEAVE. LEAVE HIM ALONE!" I scream. They all slowly leave. I hug Tony and start crying harder. "Tony, why, you promised." He just shrugs. "You need rest. We'll talk later okay Tonzie? I love you." I kiss his cheek and gently run my hand over his cuts. "Austin? Please, help him to his bunk." I say through sobs. Austin comes in and picks Tony up. I get up and leave the bus.

I don't know where I was going but I needed to be alone. I find a tree and sit under it. I pull my knees to my chest and start crying, my whole body shaking. This was all my fault, I wasn't there for him when he needed me. I'm such a fuck up!

All the blood and deep cuts from Tony is all I see in my head. The look in his eyes, he looked so lost, so scared, so sad. I start crying harder. All the images in my head triggers me. That aching feeling in my wrist, the temptation. I need the razor, for it to glide across my wrist, to open a scar back up, to see the blood ooze out, I need it, I want it, and it's exactly what I'm going to do. I get up and head to the bus. Images of blood seeping out of my cuts on my wrist running through my head, making me pick up my pace. I just need to feel the razor on my wrist.

SORRY IF IT'S TRIGGERING TO ANYBODY.