Dating an artiste is not for the weak. Initially I was in it for the hype, the excitement, the money. I was so used to having a boring life and the money was a plus. Things were hard back home. I didn't have any intention of actually falling for Javon but I did. I wanted to end it. Everything had to be on his terms and we were hardly seeing each other anyway. I wasn't interested in being with somebody who treated me like that. Everything was taking a toll for the worst. I was getting bad grades which was definitely a sign that this relationship was bad for me.
Getting an education a literally the only thing weh can get me out of poverty ano like mi fulla this heap a talent and mi naave no links or nutn like that do forming a damn fool over a man who wasn't mine was the dumbest shit mi coulda ever do.
My bestfriend Sam nudged me. I was staring in space and I was silent as we walked to second period.
"Yo yuh good?"
I took a deep breath "Girllll mi deevn know"
She looked really concerned and a bit confused
"So u waa tell me what's wrong then, cause yaa scare mi now?"
I shook my head, I haven't told anyone about Javon. Dem woulda probably create too much excitement or ... they would think I am lying and if the man a fuck down the place mi nuh think mi waa nobody fi know seh a me him a tek fi idiot. Even though, he made it clear without even saying a word seh we just a enjoy whatever this is between us and it isn't anything serious. Then again he called me his girl so mi deevn did sure where we stand to be honest.
"Cheer up then" She gave me a jolly rancher and held my hand leading me to Bio class. I looked down at the blue candy.
"Yuh naave no red jolly rancher yuh always a gimmie di taste bad flavour dem"
She smirked and looked at me sideways...
"Yaafi tell mi wah do yuh first"
I playfully pushed her
"It nuh that serious girl tbh"
She pushed the door open to our Bio lab and let me walk in first and took my bag.
"Alright well if anything u can text me if u feel better a talk over text cause yuh look stressed out, nuh like dah look deh pan di doll"
She was such a great friend but mi just never want a soul fi know seh me did a link wid an artiste. Not that mi nuh trust her but once one person know u run the risk of others finding out and I wanted to run for head girl. Honesly mi couldn't afford nutn a get outta hand right now.
"Girl it's cool ... "
She looked at me sideways she knew for a fact that I was hiding something. We were good friends but mi know sometimes she feel a way cause she nuh hide nutn from me but mi a hide things.
"Anyways girl ... we did get homework?"
"Yh u never do it?" I said, I was kidding. We didn't get any homework not like she woulda do it anyways.
"Kmt ... mi nu memba dat ... what was it about?"
"Girl a joke mi a mek wi nuh get no homework"
She exhaled a sigh of relief, "Girl stop freighten mi suh" . She pulled her stool closer to mine. She started tell me about her sex life. I was still a virgin so anything at all she wanted to tell me usually excite mi. She made sex sound so fun and honestly with Javon mi nuh think mi waa wait but ... Idk what he would think about having sex witb a virgin. Mi kniw fi a fact dem man deh used to bad gal, the hottest set of women so ne being a virgin would probably turn him off. I was 16 and sometimes mi feel like I was the only virgin in the world because everyone I knew was fucking.
