The Seed

Introduction

Everything started when I was just a little child. I was three years old but I could think clearly, a lot more than most of the other kids of my age. I could realize that I wasn't like them, but in fact, they could too.
In my house I was shown to love knowledge, they strengthened my memory and my curiosity to learn new things. My grandfather used to tell me:"Knowledge will not make you a good person, but it will give you the possibility to choose who you want to be."
So that's what I became: the swot and know-all of the class who nobody wanted to be with. I spent the whole kindergarten and four years of the primary education avoiding and hiding away from the popular boys and girls in my age.
First of all they just insulted me, they called me the "snailgirl" or the "cow". I have always been shy, so I never said anything back to them. The problem continued and it started getting worse when I grew up: the populars girls in my class laughed at me and made me hate the school. I was bullied, and still worse: I was alone.
Among the years, I found a way to disconnect from reality, reading books. I read a lot: Roalh Dahl, J.K. Rowling, Dickens... I needed places to visit although it was just with my imagination.
This passion for the books became another weapon which they could use to hurt me. I became the "freak" of the class.
Luckily, when I was ten they stopped laughing at me and eventually I could join the class as another student of the group.
Everything has been OK for this few years, but now that I'm a teen, I realize how much influence have my classmates in my personality. They made me change or stop doing the things I liked just because I wanted to be one of them, like them.
How naive have I been.
Only now do I realize I don't want to be a normal girl, I want to become someone who does what she most loves without caring of what the other people will say.
Everything is possible now, I start again from the beginning, but this time I will make the decisions.